𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐌𝐏𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒; 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠

a. herrera x j. draxler (departure)

Dear Julian,

Departures are never easy, so I fully understand your grief. However, you must know that there are reasons for it. I'm sorry that I can't tell you all about it in person, but I don't want to further negate what is between us. Messages are bloody cheesy, which is why I prefer to write a letter, because you've always said that letters are bloody romantic. It's just a shame that what I write here might destroy your view of them.

I don't know where to start myself. I have a wife, two wonderful daughters who I love more than life, and yet I wanted you too. I'm fucking selfish, which is why it's time to end it all. I know it will probably break your heart with this, and believe me I never wanted to do it, but in the end you will come to realise that it's just better this way. You're a wonderful boy who I love more than life and that's why I've decided it's over.

From the moment I saw you, I knew you were everything I needed. That's why I longed to be as close to you as possible. I will never forget all those moments together when we had the chance to lie together and you fell asleep in my arms and I could admire your beauty. Your wonderful voice, your smile.... All this will stay with me for a long time, because damn it, I love you, do you understand?

But it doesn't matter now. I have my family, and you are about to welcome a new member into yours. It makes me so damn painful to look at my own children. I don't want to destroy your family, just like you didn't want to destroy mine. You always had doubts about our relationship and you were fucking right. I'm a fucking idiot because I didn't see it coming before and it just couldn't work. I love Isabel, Daniela and Carla, they are the most important people in my life. I don't know why I had to do that.... I got mad and wanted forbidden love like some teenager. I'm so stupid...

That's why I was faced with a choice. Stay in Paris and spoil our lives, or go to Spain. I chose the latter, because you deserve the best. I'm not the best, which is why I'm disappearing now. I apologise again, even though it's just a stupid word and won't change anything. You'll be better off without me.

I love you, Julian, and I wish you all the best,

your Ander

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sorry, friends, but this is my first
one shot in english and I used
a translator. I hope, there
aren't so many mistakes.

love you all.