°•Since I Left•°☆Marauders/ Golden Trio☆

☆Chapter 9☆

⚠️This chapter might me triggering to some people! It will contain mentions of r\pe. I will mark where it starts and end with this ⚠️ sign if you want to skip it⚠️

☆Monas POV☆

I was out clubbing with some of my muggle friends. Kids were home with Regulus and Casper. I adored their relationship.

I was the one driving so I haven't drunked anything but the night was still fun.

I was dancing, flirting with random people, I was having fun and feeling like a stupid teenager again.

''I'm going to get some air its getting stuffy in here,'' I said to the girls and went outside.

As i was standing outside getting a cigarette out of my purse and lighting in up.

I didn't even realise when someone took it from me and put it in their mouth.

''I'm Jared,'' a guy with blonde hair and grey eyes said as he sticked his hand out for me to shake.

''Mona,'' I shaked his hand, it felt of, I felt like I needed to get out of there fast.

''It was nice meeting you Jared but I have to get going now,'' I said turning around and trying to walk away.

I didn't get to far before he grabbed my hand, ''dont go yet please, stay, keep me company.'' He said desperately as his eyes and tone darkened at each word.

Next thing I knew he was dragging me behind the corner.

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He started kissing me, I was desperately trying to get away but I couldn't, my mind flew with thoughts. I couldn't believe that's this is happening.

He started kissing my neck hitting my sweet of which caused me to moan and I hated myself for it. It was a natural reaction for my body. I broke down, I cried alot but I couldn't say a word, I was terrified.

Next thing I knew he was in me. I was scared, I cried even harder. Why couldn't I for once bring my wand with me, why couldn't I just fight back, why can't I help myself?

After he finished up with me he zipped his pants and casually walked away.

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I was on the ground trembling and scared.

After some time I got up and went back inside. The girls instantly noticed my tear smudged face. I brushed it of that I saw my ex with someone who is everything I wish to be.

After I got home the children were already asleep so was Reggie and Casper.

I went to the shower and rubbed my skin as hard as I can. I could still feel and see his hands all over my body. I scrubbed and scrubbed until my skin now was all red and sore.

I couldn't sleep. I stayed up all night not even a blink of sleep.

Next morning I couldn't eat or get out of bed. I was ashamed of myself, I hated myself for what I've done.

It's your fault

              Its your fault

         Its your fault

   Its your fault

              It's your fault

Its your fault

The drowning sensation was back. I felt like drowning again. I felt alone. I felt like I was the problem of everything. This time I hoped that I won't come up for air.

566 words!

Yeah this chapter is uuuh yeah. Sorry for it but it was the only idea I had for a part of future chapters.

Stay safe, eat, drink water, YOU matter!!!

Till next time folks.