The fact that right now I can't be sure close to you and that's why it make our feelings revisit the pass and as much as I love spending time with you as much as you make me smile and laugh and all of those things I dont think its good for us right now to be friends maybe at some point we can be but thats still right now I still need that space because I cant say that I already get over you.. you know I wish its like a vampire diaries where you just turn off your humanity and you dont feel any emotions or anything.. but unfortunately it isn't.
You probably never read this, chances are I wont ever reach you.. I probably just writing this for myself you know for therapeutic reason. I guess I should just say all this stuff specially by now to forget in general. I think right now I've finished the process that I can finally turn the fact that you're not comming back.. ever..you know what.. I'm doing ok, I'm getting there..my friends keep telling me it's a possitive step and getting over you and stuff. you know people is always on about, you might find someone else its plenty more fish in the ocean but you know I feel like I'm a freakin' fish in a bucket.
Sometimes in my way, I get this weird urge to call you which is stupid cuz I know you wouldn't answer it.
I wonder if you ever remember me sometimes, I wish you talk to me, give me some weird signs that you do remember me.. I'm aware that it's been seven months since we first meet in a social site when you send me a request I was really happy that day you do even stayed up late that day because we have 8 hours time gap. I was really amazed to your personality and you do even make me laugh with your weird jokes. It also fun talking to you on skype, its funny you know cuz we can video call on skype without even talking because we need to use papers and pen so that my mom will not hear our voice but you imitate my moves and doing other crazy stuff thats why I always laugh cuz I cant help it. Remember the Filipino movies we used to watch specially "She's dating the gangster" movie which you're fascinated about the story. And even your breakfast is my dinner it doesnt make any difference for us. Days, weeks, and months past we never noticed that we already fall to each other.
