[Hidden Love] /Phillipa Soo& Sara Barreilles

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Sara's POV

I was finally home after the premiere and filled my bathtub with warm water, since I needed to relax and get my mind clear. My whole feelings were so mixed up and I was so confused about them. On one hand I was extremely mad at Pippa and also on Hannah, especially on Hannah, to be honest. But on the other hand I had feelings towards Pippa which were getting more difficult to ignore each day.

I knew that I also couldn't ignore Hannah for a long time, since she already sent me twelve voice messages in which she explained how sorry she was about what happened. The good thing about the fact that Hannah and Pippa had an affair together was, that now I had a good excuse to break up with Hannah, without being an absolute dick. I used to tell myself that Hannah was 'the one' and I felt like I couldn't leave her but since that kiss with Pippa, my mind changed completely.

Even though the pain which I felt afterwards, by finding out that Hannah cheated on me was so hurtful. It didn't change the fact that I wanted to feel Phillipa's soft lips on mine again. I wanted to hold her tight in my arms and never let her go again. But I wasn't sure if she wanted the same with me. So I got into the warm bathtub and decided that I needed to clear the open business, which I've got with Hannah, before I'd talk to Pippa again.

After I finished my relaxing bath and got out of the bathtub and decided to text Hannah back, to arrange a meeting for the next day.

Hey, Hannah. I need to talk to you tomorrow.

Alright, what time and place?

2pm, our usual coffeehouse?

Sounds good

I sighted, as I was sorting all the things in my mind, which I wanted to tell Hannah at the meet up the next day. Right in this moment Louie, my dog, jumped on the couch and made himself comfortable, right next to me, with his head on my lap. "You don't have such complicated problems, don't you? You're lucky to be a dog." I said and earned some barks from him.

The next day came early and I got myself ready to meet up with Hannah. At 1:30pm I left the house and walked to the coffeehouse. I arrived at 1:50pm and already saw Hannah, who was sitting at our usual table. We used to go here all the time and made some beautiful memories in there. But as I remembered these moments we had, I always had in mind that it was in the past and I already moved on from Hannah. "Hey." She greeted me seriously and I greeted her the same way back, before I sat down. Right in this moment the waitress called Stephanie came to our table. We used to go there so often, that we already knew her and she knew us. "Hey, how are my two favourite lovebirds?" She said, before she handed me and Hannah the card with the menus on it. "Actually we are-" Hannah started to talk but I interrupted her. "We're not together anymore." I said and was able to see how Stephanie was suddenly very uncomfortable. "Oh, well... I'm coming in 5 minutes again to take your orders." She said quickly before she left us alone again.

"So it's over?" Hannah asked me. I was able to hear how her voice slightly broke and I saw how tears were suddenly in her eyes. She shouldn't have been so surprised about that, considering what she did to me. "Hannah, I see you now as a completely different person and I can't trust you anymore the way I did before that. Also if I wasn't enough this time, I'm afraid I'll never be enough for you." I explained to her but our conversation was interrupted by Stephanie who took our orders. After she left again Hannah continued the conversation.

"You're talking nonsense, Sara. You were enough for me and you still can be enough for me. It was a stupid mistake of mine and I sadly can't undo it. The affair with Phillipa didn't mean anything to me, but you're my world. Sara give us an another chance." She said before she took my hands in hers over the table. "Please don't make this more difficult for me, Hannah, than it already is. I'm afraid I'm not feeling the same things as u feel and it's for the better for us to break up. I just want to end our relationship, before I find myself in an unhappy relationship with you, meanwhile I want to be with a different woman." I said before I took my hands out of Hannah's hands.

Tears started to build up in my eyes and the same happened to Hannah infront of me. "Are you saying that only because Pippa said that she loves you?" Hannah asked me and my heart skipped a beat as Hannah said these words. Pippa said that she loved me? "What?" I asked still confused and immediately saw the regret in Hannah's eyes. "Oh- You didn't know? She told me yesterday that she loves you and then ran out of the room. I assumed you already knew." Hannah explained and I just shook my head. From this moment on, I couldn't stop thinking about Pippa. She loved me and that was the only thing that mattered to me in this moment and I noticed how I slowly started to smile. But then I remembered that Hannah was sitting infront of me. "No, I didn't know about that. But yes, it's because of Pippa." I told Hannah and she nodded in response. Then we sat in silence infront of each other for a moment. None of us didn't know what to say and I looked at the clock on my phone. It was almost 3pm and I had to go to the theatre soon. Actually I wanted to be there a bit earlier for some very good reasons. "I guess, I should go now." I said then and Hannah nodded again. "Sara?" She said. "Yeah?" I asked and waited for Hannah to say something. "I just want to say that I'm so sad how our relationship ended but I'll never forget the good times we had. You're one of the most special people I've ever met and I'm so lucky that I spent my time with you." Hannah said with a weak smile on her lips, while tears were running down her cheeks. "Thank you, Hannah." I said before I got up from my chair. "And one more thing!" Hannah exclaimed, before I'd walk away from the table. I looked at her curious before she decided to speak. "Please keep an eye on Pippa. During 'Suffs' she seemed to me a bit unstable and anxious and since then I'm worried about her." I nodded in response before I said goodbye to Hannah and left the coffeehouse. It was time to go to the theatre.

Phillipa's POV

The day after the premiere, I went at 3pm to the theatre again. I had the events of last night still in my mind, as I walked through the stagedoor of the St James theatre. I was just hoping that the chemistry between me and Sara wouldn't be too awkward at that day. So I went into my dressing room, closed the door behind me and put my fannypack down on my desk. I tried not to think about it but I was afraid that there was a possibility for Sara and Hannah to come together again and it scared me. I knew that I didn't have the right to be jealous, if that was the case since I haven't told Sara about my feelings yet and I definitely didn't plan to do so. If she wanted to be happy with Hannah then that's her decision. Also I probably wouldn't see her again after we'd finish 'Into the woods'. Which meant that I wouldn't have to see her everyday anymore and eventually I'd get over her so, if she decides to be with Hannah, then I'm going to be fine with it.

Right in this moment someone knocked on the door of my dressing room. So I went to the door just to see Sara standing infront of it. She looked like she was totally out of breath and her hair was a bit messy. "Sara, what's going on?" I asked confused. "Pippa, did you say that you love me?" She bluntly asked and made my body froze within seconds by hearing that. I was completely shocked by what Sara just asked me. "I- what..." I stuttered, not knowing what exactly to say. "I talked to Hannah today and we ended our relationship officially and then she told me that you told her that you love me." Sara explained and it made much more sense to me, where she got this from. I hesitated for a second what to say or what to do, since I didn't think a situation like this would happen. "So?" Sara asked me now a bit afraid, as she probably saw my hesitation. "Yes, I love you." I said then with a slight smile on my lips, which I couldn't suppress. "But I didn't want to bother you with that, since you've got a lot to deal with. So don't feel any pressure about the fact that I just want to hold you and-" I stopped before I thought again where I was going with my sentence. "Kiss you." I whispered shyly and Sara just smiled back at me. " Sometimes you're talking such stupid things, Pips. You'd never bother me with anything." She then took one step towards me and took my hands into hers. "You could never bother me because-" She stopped for a moment just to look into my eyes for a second. It was such an intense moment, as our faces were so close to each other and our body's were only inches away. "Because I love you too." She said then relieved and with a huge smile on her face. The next thing I knew was that my lips were on hers. The world around us disappeared for for me completely and it felt like an actual firework was happening in my stomach. And I thought this was the ending of mine and Sara's fairytale, but was I right about that?

~The End?

SEQUEL: "Exposed Love" is now uploaded on my account
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OK for now this is the beautiful ending of this sweet short fanfiction. Hope you enjoyed the story and thanks for reading! <3<3