I loved you, did you love me?

Chapter 1: was i dreaming?
Hey guys, this story is about a 19 year old boy  whose name is Alex. He had just gotten out of high school about almost a year ago. His life has been pretty shitty since  Junior year. He had come out to his parents as being gay, and he got kicked out of his house, and moved in with his sister and her boyfriend. His sister's name is Kim, Kim is 23 and works at a school. And her boyfriend's name is Nick,he is 21 and he works at a bar in the town. After he got out of high school his sister told him he had to go get his own place. That's when Nick offered that Alex should stay at his place since he has an extra room. So Alex moved in with him. As the months passed, Alex started to develop feelings for Nick. Feelings he had never felt towards anyone before, he wrote in his Diary , "dear diary, last night  Nick asked me if I wanted a kiss and i said sure thinking the guy I had been crushing on for almost a year had feelings back for me, but no he handed me a Hershey's kiss. My life completely fucking sucks." Then he closed his diary, and put  it in his bag. It was about 6:30 a.m, and so he got out of bed and went to take a shower. As he was getting out of the shower Nick walked in. "AHHH" "OH MY FUCKING GOD, I AM SO SORRY ALEX!" Nick walked right out the door. They both were blushing. Alex put a Towel around himself and walked out of the bathroom and toward nick. "Hey nick" "h-hey Alex" they both kinda just sat there blushing, and then there hands moved closer to each other's hands. The warmth of Nick's hands hit Alex like a bullet, his whole body felt so warm. Then there was a knock on the door, and in came Kim, their hands moved away from each other like a Cheetah going after their prey. "So what have you boys been up to?" "Well..." then Alex couldn't finish what he was going to say, 'cause Kim started to make out with Nick. He goes  into his room and starts listening to Harry Styles, and cleans for a little and then he leaves  the house without saying goodbye or nothing. He put his headphones on and got on his bike. When the cold air hit his face he couldn't stop remembering when Nick touched his hand. He didn't know if Nick liked him or not. He got to a Field, we're the fall leaves we're falling he went to his favorite spot. But there sat the hottest man ever. Alex's mouth opened in amazement, he slowly walked over to the man. The man looked up and said "can I help you?" " oh huh" Alex stuttered "oh umm no I just usually sit here but seems like you have taken this spot" "oh I am sorry I can move'' as the man started to gather his stuff Alex said "wait no you don't have to move'' the man look at Alex with the sweetest smile. "Why thank you, would you like to sit with me?" Alex's face turned red "oh umm sure" even though Alex didn't even know who this man was he had a good feeling about this. He sat down next to this man and said "my name is Alex by the way" "nice to meet you Alex, my name Zack" "nice to meet you Zack. " would you like to listen to some music?" Zack Held out one of his air pods ''sure!" Alex took the air pod and put it in his ear. Right when he put it in the music started to speak to him. As they both sat there, Zack leaned over a put, his head on Alex's chest. Alex looked down and saw Zack's beautiful face. He started to blush; he had never had anyone put their head on his chest before. "Sorry,are you okay with me putting my head on your chest?" "Oh yeah it's fine" they listened to music together for about 3 hours. Alex woke up and saw Zack was gone. Alex was so confused, he didn't know if he dreamed the whole thing or if he had fallen asleep and Zack left. When he rode his bike home, he could not get Zack out of his head. He wanted to see Zack again. But he also didn't know if he was real or not. When he got back to his place Nick looked very mad. "Nick was wrong?" "You're asking me what's wrong?!" " "umm yeah..'''' oh well i will tell you what's wrong, Kim just left to see your parents.?" "what the fuck, why?!" " she said they asked her to go because of a family weekend, so I am guessing your other sister and brother will be there." " what the living fuck, i didn't get a texted or an call from any of my family about this!" Then Nick grabbed Alex's hand and pulled him over to the couch. " alex, I know why you didn't get any calls or texts about this." " okay then why?!" " I need you to calm down." " okay" " so your parents kicked out of the house cause you are gay, and your siblings thought it would be best if you didnt go" alex's face dropped, his eyes filling up with tears of regret and sorrow. He got up from the couch and walked in his room and closed the door. All Nick could hear was the soft fant sound of Alex crying. "Dear diary... today I found out two things. One my whole family are going to be gone the whole weekend and probably the whole week, and i was not invited because i am gay. And two i saw this very hot guy in the field i usually go to, but i don't know if he is real or i just dreamed him." then he closed his diary. Right then nick walked in his room. " hey alex, how are you holding up?" alex look at nick like he was stupid. " how am i?!" " well i just found out that my entire family think i am a disgrace to them , and i like two people but one of them i don't know if they're real or if they dreamt them." Nick's face looked like he had been crying for hours. "And what about the other one alex?" " oh umm" alex had just realized he had just basically told nick about his intiler life. "Oh he's umm hard to explain." As Alex was walking out of his room, Nick stopped him and asked him a question. "Hey alex i have a question" "oh okay whats up?" alex went and sat down again. "Well umm, how do you know if you start having felling towards the same grander?" "oh well, when i first found out that i was gay was my brother brought over one of his friends, and i started to talk to  him and i started having feelings for him. Then that exact year this girl asked me out and she was known as the hottest girl in  school and every guy would have wanted to go out with her. But i said no." "so your bascaly saying you found out you were gay by saying no to the hottest girl in your school?" "yes" "what if you like guys and girls?" "Well I mean it kinda depends on do you only like girls and boys, or do you not care who you date, and it doesn't matter what gender or what they look like or what their pronouns are  ." Nick sat there for a good long 2 minutes. "Ummm, I only like girls and boys." " oh well then that person would be bisexual." "what about the other one?" " oh well then they would be  pansexual." "okay thanks" "nick, if you don't mind me asking. Why did you ask me that?" "oh umm well i am kinda starting to have feelings for this boy i know, and i am pretty sure he likes me back". Alex's whole body froze  at that moment. " Why do you think they like you back?'' Well, one he always is blushing around me and two he's  just always awkward around me." "oh." then alex walked out of the room
Chapter 2:i can't believe this is real
Alex walked to the couch and sat down, he pulled out his phone and looked at his family's facebook. There were his whole family, tears started to fall down his face again. Nick came out of Alex's room and walked over to Alex and sat next to him and leaned him on him so  Alex's head was on Nick's chest. They cuddle there while alex cried. "Alex don't cry" "why shouldn't i cry?" "cause there just being about a bunch of assholes" alex knew nick was right but he kept crying anyways. After about 10 minutes, Alex fell asleep. He had a dream, and Zack was in the dream. But it was a weird dream cause zack didn't look like zack from the other time. He looked like the boy who  his brother brought over. Then alex woke up, and nick was in the kitchen. " how long was i sleeping for?" " oh about like 2 hours" "2 HOURS?!" " Yeah, that's what I said." Alex was so weirded out by that cause he didnt know if he was still dreaming or if he was just really tired. So alex walked over to nick and hit him right a cross the face. "WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR?!" " Oh okay , you're real" Alex walked right into his room and closed the door. Nick was so confused by what just happened so he opened Alex's door and walked right in and jumped right onto Alex's bed. "Umm can i help you nick?" " yeah you sure can" "okay what then?" Then Nick kissed alex. Alex's body was going crazy. He didn't know if this was a good thing or a bad thing.alex wrapped his arms around nick. They kissed for a long time, then they fell asleep together. The next morning Alex found himself laying next to nick. He looked up at the ceiling thinking about the night before. He had never kissed a guy that he truly loved before, his emoushions going everywhere. Then all of a sudden the was a knock on the front door. Alex got up and put on a shirt and went to the door. He opened the door and there stood Kim, and a guy that  looked oddly familiar. "Kim, I didn't know you were coming back from the family trip that i was not invited to." Kim looked up at Alex and then motioned for the guy to come in. "So where's nick?" "oh nick" Alex now remembering that Nick was dating his sister, and they had just slept together. " Oh Nick, he's in my bedroom." Kim's face went red "WHAT THE FUCK IS HE DOING IN THERE?!" "he got home from work late and i had fallen asleep on the couch so he went in my room thinking it was his" "oh okay cool" "kim who is this guy?!" nick walked out of alex's room. "Oh that is my friend zack, he said he knew alex so i brought him over" alex's started to blush, that's where he remembers  him from. "ZACK?!" zack looked over and saw alex. "Alex, i have missed you." "Oh yeah heh." "what is he talking about alex?" nick looked at Alex. in  this scary way. Then alex slowly backed up and went in his room, his whole body was sweating he code not catch his breath. He took his shirt off and put it on his bed. The memories  were coming back to him. He remembered why zack said i have missed you. He was dreaming zack at the felid, but he had been friends with zach when he was younger till he found out that alex was gay and said "i need space." and he never called or texted alex. Then zack walked in. "hey alex" "what do you want zack?" " umm Kim and nick are fighting, and i wanted a safe place to go" "why the fuck do you think this is a safe space for you?" Alex grabbed his shirt and put it on. "I don't know, I just thought we were close." "oh you think we are close?!" alex grabbed zacks shirt a pinned him to the wall, tears falling from alex's face. "You left me when i was only 17, trying to find my way through life after getting kicked out of my house for me being gay. And so I went to you. I need you in my darkest hours but you weren't there for me. Do you know many marks i have on my body cause no one wanted to be friends with me cause i was the stupid gay guy?!" Zack started to cry, the flashbacks to when Zack told Alex he needed space. "I am sorry alex, I didn't know what else to do." "Oh come on, don't pull that bullshit on me. I asked you if I could stay with you till I could find somewhere else to live, and you said no!" he let go of zack. Zack fell to the ground, not cause alexs pushed him, but cause he felt so bad about what he did. Alex was on his way out of his room to see what Kim and Nick were fighting about but then Zack said "Wait alex!" " Who knows, what are you going to say to me?!" "i love you alex.'' Alex stood in the doorway, hearing Nick and Kim fighting about alex. But also his head was not right after hearing he old friend saying he loves alex. "WHAT?" "Alex, listen to me before you go!" Alex didn't say anything else, he just stood there. "I have loved you ever since junior year of high school." "why the fuck did you not tell me about this?!" "cause i was confused about what i was feeling." Then Alex walked out of his room, and then Kim stopped him. "So how was your talk with my boyfriend?" "umm me and Nick have not talked since last night." " Oh, so Zack didn't tell you then." "what do you mean?" nick sat down, while alex laughed in confusement. "That does not mak any since." then zack walked out of alex's room. "Zack so you didnt tell alex?" "no" alex looked at zack, tears coming down his face. " what is kim talking about?" "the really reason i didn't call you and text you over these years is cause me and you sister were dating." nick sad there with his hand over his mouth. " i dont get it, kim arent you dating nick?" " no" "what do you mean no?" kim took a deep beath. "Me and nick broke up about a year ago, but we didn't want to tell you about me and him and about me and zack." alex was now crying, his heart had been broken twice one by a guy he thought he loved and the other guy who said he loved alex but really didn't. "Are you fucking kidding me?!" "Zack you said you loved me, guess you're the same dickhead for high school, and you nick out of all the people in the world, you i trust the most." nick stood up and walked over to alex. "Alex I wanted to tell you, i really did." "right, well seems like the guy i loved really didnt like me at all.'' Alex walked into his room and grabbed his pocket knife and headphones and walked out of the house. He got on his bike and road to the field. He put on harry styles and grabbed his pocket knife, and impaled himself with it right into his chest. He laid there bleeding listen to his favorite music. Nick and kim and zach found him laying dead there, nick found a note covered in some blood and he read it out loud to kim and zack. "Dear Zack, nick and kim... i am sorry for not being normal, sorry for ever evening telling any of you guys that i was gay. I think you guys would have moved trough life a lot better that way. Please know that i loved each and everyone of you guys." nick look at alex's body and sat next to him and held his hand and said with tears coming down his face " you and not something that you should be a shamed of, you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I love you alex."
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