i was twelve

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"pack." maggie said, giving billie a bag. "why? am i going back to the psych ward?" billie asked. "yes. i found your drugs and blades." maggie grumbled. "o-okay, ill pack" billie said, her voice wobbling. billie grabbed some clothes and shoved them in the bag along with her favorite stuffed animal and some other things she knew she could bring. she turned her lights off amd walked put of her room. "im done packing" she said quietly.

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"do you have anything hidden in the stuffed animal?" one of the nurses asked. "no i dont." billie said. "i-i cant sew." she added. the nurse forcefully yanked the stuffed animal put if billies hands. "NO!" billie screamed. "give her back!" she cried. "please don't hurt her!" she sobbed. "please! i cant sleep without her." she wailed. "i may take drugs and i may hide them but i would never cut her open to hide drugs."

"please." she whispered. "well you have been here multiple times and youve never tried to smuggle drugs in so i believe you." the nurse said softly. "thank you." billie said, making grabby hands towards her stuffed animal. the nurse handed her the bunny. "let me take you to your room. are you okay with having a roommate?" he asked. "yep." billie uttered. he opened a door to reveal a brunette girl. "thats drew."

"hi." billie said shyly, hiding her bunny behind her back. "what? oh, um, hi." drew murmured. "ill leave you two alone to get to know each other." he said before leaving the room. "you got a name, cutie?" drew asked. "mhm." billie nodded her head. "whats your name then?"

"bi-billie."

"what brings you here?"

"mom found my blades and drugs. again."

"again?"

"yeah ive been here before."

"im here because i got mad and threatened to kill my whole family then myself." drew chuckled. billie looked around the room. "youre really pretty." drew smiled. "ugh, not you too." billie whined. "how the fuck can you even look at my face? its so horrible."

"dont say that."

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billie looked into the mirror while washing her hands and immediately burst into tears. "fuck!" she wailed. she dried her hands and walked back into her and drews shared room. "what's wrong?" drew asked. "my face! thats what's wrong! i looked in the fucking mirror! that's what the fuck is wrong! im so fucking ugly! i cant even look into the fucking mirror for more than a fucking second without fucking crying! that's what's wrong! im what's wrong!" she sobbed. "can i give you a hug?" drew muttered. "please." billie mumbled. drew stood up and wrapped her arms around billie. "shh, ive got you." drew purred. "thank you." billie smiled.

"no need to thank me, cutie."