The Light of Midnight (BxB)

Prologue

No dawn, no dusk, or even the light of midnight is enough for us to breathe in this existence. You are my lifetime and in this lifetime we are infinite.

"I'll be better, Dad. Just please let me stay here." I pleaded. "Nandito ang buhay ko, huwag niyong ilayo sa'kin ang mga ito." 

"Kung sana noon pa lang ay nakikinig ka na sa'min ng Mommy mo at hindi puro pagbabarkada ang inaatupag mo ay baka hindi na umabot sa ganito ang lahat!" Daddy shouted. "Minsan na lang kita makausap pero tungkol pa sa mga gulong ginawa mo!"

"Hindi ko ho hahayan na masaktan 'yung kaibigan ko nang wala akong ginagawa!" I excalimed.  Alam kong mali 'yung ginawa ko na makisama sa nangyari pero kahit kailan ay hindi ko sila iiwanan. "They've been my family when you're both not present in my life." I whispered the last sentence, but enough for them to hear. 

Mom and Dad had been like this since I was a kid. I don't even had a memory where we all both had a vacation together. I am their only child, yet I am still and I will always be craving for their attention. Aalis ako patungo ng school nang wala sila, uuwi ako na ang mga kasambahay lang namin ang madaratnan, at matutulog akong walang kahit anong bakas mula sa kanilang dalawa. That's always been the cycle. Trabaho ang buhay nila hindi ako, hindi ang pamilya na binuo nila. 

Hindi ko tuloy sigurado kung dapat ba akong maniwala sa pagmamahal gayong hindi ko naman ito nakikita sa kanila. 

And that's the reason why I am partying and drinking all night. I am privilege in all of the things that most of my age doesn't have, but I don't care about all of this. I only want to feel the love and care that my both parents can't give. Alak ang nagbibigay sa'kin ng dahilan para makalimutan ang lahat at panandiliang makaramdam ng saya bago harapin muli ang buhay ko kasama sila. 

Wala akong narinig na kahit ano mula sa kanila. Nakatingin lang sila parehas sa isa't isa kaya kinuha ko muli ang pagkakataon para makapagsalita. "Just give me a chance, Mommy, Daddy." 

"My words are final. Sa Bataan ka tutungo hanggang sa magtino ka. Saka lang natin pag-uusapan ang lahat ng bagay kapag nakabalik ka na." Then he walked out. Wala nang nagawa si Mommy kung hindi ang sundan siya. Hindi niya ako tinitignan kaya napayuko ako matapos marinig na ang marahang pagsara ng pintuan ng aking kwarto. 

Apat na araw na ang nakalipas simula nang makarating ako rito sa Bataan. Dito ako sa mismong dormitoryo ng campus tumutuloy dahil sa utos ng tatay ko. Kahit sa Manila kami naninirahan ay hindi pa rin doon natatapos ang mga koneksiyon na meron siya. Kaya alam ko na kahit dito ay bantay sarado ako sa mga galaw ko. 

Ngayon ay nilalaro ko ang ID ko habang naglalakad patungo sa event's hall ng paaralan para sa pagwe-welcome sa'ming mga freshmen. Wala naman talaga akong balak pumunta dahil sayang lang oras ko rito kaya lang naisip ko rin na wala rin naman akong gagawin kung mananatili lang ako sa dorm dahil bukas pa ng hapon ang practice ko kaya minabuti ko nang tumuloy.

At bilang pampalipas oras at para na rin malagay sa isip ko sa ibang bagay ay nagtry-out ako sa basketball bago magsimula ang klase. Dito at sa pagsasayaw lang naman ako may talento. 'Yung isa ay natutunan ko pa habang nasa bar. 

I didn't mind how I am going to be late because I heard the program had already started. I just took my time and let myself think of the things that really matter. I won't be staying here long and I am sure of that. Maybe a month will do or a term I guess?

Basta ang alam ko lang ay ayaw ko rito at wala akong kahit sinong balak kaibiganin sa mga magiging kaklase o teammate ko. Bahala sila sa mga buhay nila. Sapat na sa'kin ang mga kaibigan ko sa Manila, hindi ko sila kailangan sa buhay ko kasama ang lugar na ito. 

"Tabi!" Someone shouted, but it is already too late for me to make a space for this person. Tuluyan kaming nagkabungguan at napahiga sa maruming sementong daan. 

"Tang ina!" Sigaw ko matapos maramdaman ang paglapat ng aking likod sa matigas na daanan.

"Sor..." He said, but something in him made him stop from speaking. That is why I turned my gaze on him not because he did not continue on what he'll say, but because of how deep and nice his voice is. The man's hair is in a quiff haircut that suits him very well. It highlighted his brown almond eyes that will give you too much emotion as his aura speaks calmness, comfort, and peace. His nose is pointed that really suits him well, making his side frame as gorgeous as his angled jawline and his thin red mouth that's slightly open as he is still looking at me.

Wow. I am lost of words seeing how rarely this kind of face is. Oftentimes, this kind of face can only be seen when you're in an entertainment industry. Damn! I really can't believe how I precisely I describe this beautiful man in front of me.

I know to myself that I am straight, but if I am not, I will surely chase this man in the corridors anywhere in the school just for me to say how much I admire him, his physical looks mostly.

Good thing that I am, because I am ready to fight this man. As I am about to shout, I remember how I shouldn't make a scene or else I might be staying here for the rest of my life. And that will never gonna happen. Instead of having a quarrel with this man, I chose to stand up and walk back to my dorm minding how my life will drastically change now as everything that I am used to will vanish and it is staring to sink in. 

"Everybody line up on the hall!" Coach Galvez commanded the moment he entered the locker room of the gymnasium. Nagmamadali ko na inayos ang aking sarili at ang suot na jersey. Nang matapos at mapagtantong ako nalang ang natitira ay agad na akong lumabas at doon ko nakita ang mga kasama nila. There's Coach Manuel, then Coach Lito. 

Coach Galvez was about to talk, but before he even had his mouth open, someone came in to the door like he's been running all the way here. I looked at him and realized that the man who had entered the gymnasium is the man who I bumped into yesterday. 

Fuck it! I cursed to myself, but I don't know why. I am not happy, I am not angry either. I just don't know why I let it out. Again, fuck it!

"Before we start, I want to introduce to you all your new teammate." Si Coach Galvez

"Hi." Bati nito matapos ay tumingin sa'kin. "I'm Pierreson Cornellius Valdeviesco. Mechanical Engineering student." Then he smiled at everyone. 

"You can join and greet your teammates now." Si Coach. 

Tahimik lang ako sa pinakasulok at nanatiling nakatingin sa harap at hindi sa kung papaano ito makipagbatian sa mga kasamahan namin. Matagal ko nang naririnig na may bagong paparating dahil madalas nila itong binibigkas kaya lang ay wala akong pakialam, ngayon nalang na nandito ito. 

I am still focused on how my coaches are talking even though I don't have any idea what they are talking about. I can't even hear a dam thing. I just do this to be distracted because I don't want to meet him and had a connection with him. I just can't, but I guess, I don't have a choice since this man is now walking towards my way as he greets everyone. 

I don't have plans, maybe a hand shake will do I guess? Just a sign of courtesy because I also did it with my teammates here. As much as I want to be friends with everyone I will choose not to. This isn't my people. This isn't my home. 

"Hey?" Nakangiti nitong bati kaya ibinigay ko na ang buong atensiyon ko sa kaniya. I smelled his minty breath and his fragrance that smells elegance. Fuck it. Why do I keep describing this man? 

The gymnasium was filled with laughter and endless talk that came from our coaches and teammates, but that still didn't matter because of how the man in front of me said words that will change me and the way I feel in this province.

"I want you to be my boyfriend, River Valentino Alvaro." 

What the fuck? 



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Maligayang simula! I already wrote almost 20 parts, but I still can't update everything since I am having a hard time dealing with the flow of the story. I hope this will do for now. 

And just in case you didn't know or maybe you've already forgotten, River and Pierre (Milo's brother) had been mentioned in The Light After Dusk. If you haven't read that, read it first. On-going palang ito kaya doon muna kayo lol

P.S. Updates are uncertain. I'll finish setting up everything including the description once the story is final and then, we'll go back to the once or twice a week update. 

Ingat!