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SEPTEMBER 7 , 2022
10:23 AM
WEDNESDAY

            I CRIED DURING OUR SECOND PERIOD. I don't know what happened but I suddenly burst out and cried.

During our 2nd Period, Our Sir ask us the question about " IF MONEY IS NOT A RECONSIDERATION , WHAT PLACE WOULD YOU LIKE TO VISIT TO FIND YOURSELVES? ".  Then Our Sir gives us a minute to think a place and explain why did we pick that place to find ourselves. My First Option was Japan , because I'm an anime fan and I love fictional characters. And my 2nd option is El Nido , Palawan. I love beaches , so one of my option is Palawan. It also makes me calm because of the beauty I see to it.

            My classmates start to share their opinions and they commonly pick the places like PALAWAN , BAGUIO , SWITZERLAND , PARIS FRANCE , UP DILIMAN , HONGKONG , THAILAND , SOUTH KOREA AND etc.  But , I suddenly change my mind the place that I want to visit and it is

Zambales.

          When it's my turn, Our Sir repeats the Question and I said ,
 

   "Sir the Place I want to Visit if here in the Philippines is Zambales po. Cause I wanna visit my Father who left me when I was still a baby" then I burst tears.
          Nakakaiyak kasi even sir know what I'm feeling , and nakakahiya sa mga kaklase ko that time kase, I'm crying in front of them.Then sir ask me if magrrant ba'ko to them or mag-momove forward na lang kami sa mga susunod na mag-eexplain. Ta's Sabi ko , move forward na lang po tayo sir , kase yung time po e. Then he said ,   For her , The time is precious, but your feelings is valid.

Then he ask me if labas muna ako to breathe out , then ginawa ko naman. I'm literally crying going outside the room. I can't make a eye contact that time, because I see sympathy in their eyes.

Na I wish I have a Father to bond with , to Love and Never Neglect Me and My Mother.

One of the Demo Teachers follow me to comfort and share thoughts about what I'm feeling. He ask if I'm okay na ilabas ko daw lahat sakanya , nakasabay ko na sya 2 times sa jeep , siguro hndi nya lang ako napansin.
Then , Parang same din daw kami ng situation na , He's also panganay and his father left them too. 

Du'n ko na sinabi kay Sir na , Pagkadating ko na sa School , Sobrang Bigat ng Feelings ko , Pero I'm trying to Focus myself to the Teachers na nagdidiscuss sa harap namin. And one reason is we are struggling financially cause my father doesn't give me sustento ( supporting financially I think). Then I end up thinking about him.

One of the best thing that I have heard to my Sir is , I can call him Kuya. Na if hindi ko na makayanan ung mga problems ko , He's there to listen and give me advices. Na dapat hindi ko kalimutan that I have my friends , classmates and my Fam who loves me.

I always rant to My Best Friend JuelGirl^^. I miss her so much. I always tell her na , Don't be like Me. kase sobrang hirap. I am not a very vocal person. So it's hard to express my feelings towards other people.

I'm very grateful Sirs because ramdam ko po yung concern niyo kanina. Na hndi nyo po pinaramdam na iba akong tao kase I'm suffering with my problems that I'm trying to keep when I'm at school. I'm very happy po kasi , Nakapag open po ako ng problems ko sainyo ng Face to Face po , cause I only rant at online po e. Then sometimes if I rant no one wants to listen. Thank you po talaga Sirs , kase you two ask me after the end of your subject na , 'Okay ka na ?, 'Laban lang ha' God is with you' , then sabay pat sa likod ko:>>>.

That's all . I hope you enjoy my rant sa buhay HAHAHA. If possible , 'wag po kayong magkimkim ng problems. If hndi nyo na po tlaga kaya and u need someone to talk to , Please DM me po. I'm always ready to listen to all ur rants ^^. And I'm happy to help po.

BE OKAY HA , LOVE LOVE. Pray to Papa God always, and he's always there for you. ^^

bye bye. LoveLove.