Home of Hopes (Caledonia Series #1)

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Push

If you can't let their feelings be exchanged, sometimes the greatest way to make one person happy is to push them away. People are just people. My heart sought someone better even when he was doing and making me feel special to him. We'll end up in a state of turmoil. I smiled when I realized I was just pushing someone just so he would never be hurt by my feelings.

Huminga ako ng malalim habang nakatanaw sa balcony ko. Hawak ang railing at iniikot-ikot ang mata sa buong hacienda. Sinariwa ko lahat ng malamig na hangin habang patuloy akong nagmamasid sa kanilang lahat sa baba. Nawala lang ang ngiti sa akin ng mamataan ko ang lalaking palagi kong tinutulak palayo.

He glanced at them and started to wave. Kumilos ako nang wala sa sarili, ang naka-ekis kong mga braso ay pinakawalan ko habang nakatayo pa rin malapit sa railing. Lumunok ako nang maigi habang pinagmamasdan ko ang mga trabahante namin na nangungusisa kay Paul.

I smiled slightly, trying to be rude to him. But he just continued doing what he was doing until one young girl wearing a yellow maxi dress with a high ponytail came into his sight. Natigilan ako habang tinatanaw ang lalaking naka putting t-shirt at pantalon. Tinaas ko ang kilay ko at binalik ang pagka-ekis ng mga braso ko kasama na ang pagngiwi ko.

I closed my eyes as the breeze went by the balcony. I was surprised to notice that someone was staring at me. I lifted my chin and opened my eyes. The sky greeted me with a simple and brilliant sapphire. That's what I did to move in such a way that he wouldn't notice anything suspicious.

Dumungaw ako sa kanya, kunwari ay hindi ko siya nakita kanina. Pinaawang ko ang aking bibig kunwari ay gulat sa presenya niya, ngunit kabaliktaran ang gusto kong makuhang reaksyon sa kanya, imbes na magtaka ay nakita ko ang multong ngiti niya. Biglang tumaas ang kilay ko. Titig na titig siya sa akin at may mapaglaro nang ngiti sa kanya. Sa inis ko ay umatras ako at hinagilap ang glass door. I shut the door.

If that was my view every day, I would not open my drapes or, worse, visit downstairs.

Nasapo ko ang noo habang naka-upo na sa kama. Nakayuko at nakatanaw sa kulay rosas na tsinelas.

Sometimes I wonder if I was living someone else's aspirations and squandering my time if I just concentrated on one perspective. I averted my gaze and observed that some of my hair strands were not correctly placed. Umahon ako at mabilis na dumako sa walk-in closet habang naka roba na puti.

It was my favorite, but I locked my eyes and gently opened the light. I was slowly flashing and lighting up in my eyes, like a flicker of an eye. When I walked outside and felt the frigid air of my chamber, I heard it. Pinasadahan ko ang bawat sulok nito.

I was living someone else's dreams as well as my own, but it didn't seem like it was in my dreams. It simply doesn't feel complete to me. I don't always want to pursue something; sometimes I just want to daydream. But then I did it once more. How can I achieve and maintain my goals if I never get started?

I grumbled and proceeded to change into some yellow tanks and white skorts for me. As I approached the door, I donned white knee-high boots and let my hair styled.