Unexpected (Ace Frehley)

regret

My eyes crawl open as i push my head in the pillow again. Never more have i wanted to be asleep, asleep forever. I miss him even more then i did in the timespan of a month. I look over to the clock. 10:30. Ugh. I take off the phone and dial Alexa's number, waiting until she picks up. I know she'll be awake. I just want to talk to her. "Hello?" "Hey Alex, it's Sav. Just calling to inform you on the tea". "You sound hangover". "It's because i am. Ace and i broke up". A small silence passes. "I'm sorry Sav, what happened?" "Caught him cheating". "I'm sorry Sav". "Don't be it's fine". "Hmm. Have you had breakfast?" "No, but i'll do it now i think. I'm hungry so". "Ohh okay, bye Sav, take care for yourself huh". "You too Alex". I trie my best to look normal but my bloodshot eyes aren't planning on doing that.

I practically crawl downstairs, partly drunk, hangover and drained. Good think i have another bottle of vodka. I make it to the dining room, sitting at a window with a nice vieuw. I take some food from the buffet. Shoving it onto a plate and going back to my seat. I forgot Ace also needs food to survive and jesus christ. He looks even worse then i do. His eyes bloodshot, i don't know from what and i don't even think i want to know, bags under his eyes and swaying as he walks. The four of them look at me when a waitress comes over to me. "Excuse me, you can't drink that here". Revering to the bottle of vodka. "I'm sorry, i'll get rid of it". She walks away and i fill my glass with vodka and kick the bottle under the table. They still look at me as they sit down not to far from me. I eat my crossant and take a sip of my 'water'. Ace's eyes burn into my skin as i drop my head on the table.

I feel my head being held up by someone and open my eyes. Ace. I amediatly put my head on the table again, trying to avoid any confursation when i hear him pouring something in a glass. I look up to see my vodka. "That's mine". "Okay" he goes back to pouring. I pick up my glass and hold it up. "Fill it, would ya". He fills up the glass, walking away with my bottle. "Asshole". He looks over at me for a second and goes back to taking it like nothing happened. I wish i had never come here in the first place and just stayed home. I wouldn't have known and couldn't be mad at him for it. Cause it hurst and it hurts bad. I know it was just sex and he doesn't have any kind of relation with them but it's about the trust and that's now gone.

As Ace leaves their table to go upstairs i follow him. He's about to shut the door when i stop him. "My vodka". A small part of me just wants to talk to him so if this is the way, than this is the way. He tries to close the door again but i just step inside. "What do you want from me". "Nothing from you, but you have my vodka cause it's visible you already drank yours". "Get out". "Give me the bottle and i will". He walks up to the door and shuts it behind him. Putting the vodka on a table and walking over to me. He grabs my face and puts an arm around my waist, smashing his lips onto mine. I know this isn't what is going to help me but i want it and i want it bad. I kiss him back as he lifts me up placing me on the bed. We're both drunk and hangover and this isn't the smartest thing to do before i end up pregnant again. He kisses down my neck taking my shirt off. You shouldn't be doing this. Yes you should. Just leave me alone. We end up naked as he slips a condom on. I still have a change to run but my body stays chained to the bed. He pushes in as my hand grabs his hair totally out of control with what i'm doing.  He speeds up and i dig my nails into his back. Our lips make a little contact as i trie to keep myself together. After it's over he lays beside me slipping an arm around my waist. Shit. Shit. This doesn't mean we're back together. It's pure lust, right? I run a hand thro my hair as i gather my clothes and ofcourse the bottle of vodka. I look back it him. He thinks the exact same, i just know it.

Fuck.