I need you. I miss you so much. I really really regret of whatever happened between us. I'm just hanging onto the good memories between us. I just don't want the bad memories to sweep us completely. I miss seeing you. We are just not meant to be together. That's the only reason I have now. I am still trying to break up with you even though we had less convos, never took our relationship further, there's just something stopping me to accept the reality that we are not meant to be together. This break up wasn't planned in my mind and till now, 2 years passed and I am here writing about you. I still wonder if it was you or it was love which is holding me back, weighing my shoulders to move on. Some easily say not to give up but it isn't as easy as they say. This unamed relation nevers sinks. If I have a chance I will go straight back and start from the beginning of this relationship. I never ever wanted to lose you. Though the situations made me do that but in reality I never wanted you to disappear from my life. And I know now one will ever understand this as much as I do. Things change as time passes. But things remain same on you even time passes.<br>
I just cannot have a chance it's close to impossible. I just want to slash you with all these notes. I act as if I am not interested in you but it is quite opposite to what I have in my heart. You are my regret, my selfishness, and my greed. You still hold a good place in my heart. Though my brain says no my heart says yes. Will I ever get someone whom I love this much or even more? I still doubt.
I still cherish you so much.
