Book of Sorrows

How to Unlove you

From the first day I saw you, I knew you were the one,

From the first day I heard your voice, everyone came close to none.

Days passed, months go by slowly,

Not knowing the future would look so lonely.

A walk by the beach, hair in the wind,

There goes the light, it starts to dim.

Kisses all over the body, Love in the air,

Losing you now would be my only fear.

A year has passed, is our love still here?

Something is in my tummy, hello who is there?

A white stick, with two bright red lines,

"Beep, Beep", there goes his lifeline.

Our love was a mistake, our love was not meant to be,

How can I move on? How can I be happy?

Getting ready for the party I never had, balloons colored blue,

Oh dear, how can I unlove you?

My belly has grown twice the size,

God, please help me. Have you not heard my cries?

Why are you not hearing me? Am I not important?

Or is it because I sinned in front of your covenant.

My face is swollen, my feet are killing me,

I need to get help can't you see?

Lights fading, doctors everywhere,

What is happening, why are you not here?

I woke up in pain, found a scar on my abdomen,

Knowing when I got home you won't love me again.

Where is our baby? Where is he?

He isn't breathing on his own,

He has tubes all over him.

I am now a mom, these feeling hurts,

I thought to myself, I belong 6 ft below the dirt.

Its my fault for not taking care of myself, its your fault for not loving me right,

Now our baby is fighting for his life.

You saw me and there were tears in your eyes,

But now you don't care, all you do is lie.

Did we just bring a baby in this world to suffer? You won't even hold him,

Our life is just beginning, silly us for thinking it would get easy.

Now all I do is yell and cry, and all you do is blame me,

What did I do wrong? Why can't you love me?

Help me, I need your help!

I can't do this on my own.

Now you have become distant, ah I see,

I see it now; you have learnt how to unlove me.

The baby is crying,

I am slowly dying.

How to be strong for my son?

How to be strong for myself.

You have moved on so quickly,

Not even the Gods could tell.

The way this world works is such a shame,

I give my all and just get grains.

The way this world works is such a shame,

Now I have a heart to learn to tame.

I don't know how easy it can be for you to unlove the mother of your child,

Should I not be respected? Should I not get to smile?

I am giving up on myself, I can't take this anymore.

I don't want to be here any longer.

I yet must learn, how to move on,

How to live without you,

I yet must learn, how to be strong,

How to unlove you.