the personality I made in the yarn

A personality, a development of sorts that is built up as our years grow shorter. A way to differentiate humans, "oh she's unkind" "he is really funny". All these small aspects build up our personality to give it a sense of stucture and stability.  Yet, for those like me, we are born without such tactics ingraved into our DNA. From the moment we are born, have our first heartbeat, our first breath, we have our personalities already developed. To clarify this unlikely statement, I'd like to say that there is yet an explination for this. You see, as babies, we don't seem to have a personality quite yet, even the parents don't know how the child will turn out, and that's the exact thing im implying. People like me don't have one personality that they feel true to, they are fluid with theirs, those around us(or in the first senerio our parents) wont know which version they will get of us. To simply put it, we change our energy levels, adapt to people around us, and usually have amazing acting skills. It's not that we don't have our own hobbies and interests, we just act differently with people who we socialize with. Despite this odd theory ive concluded that i hate myself because of this, i wish I was never born to be perfectly honest. I never give people my true self, because they have the perfect image of me already laid out in their minds. I cant go back, so i choose to lead myself into a pile of lies that others feed off of.

I am a waste of air.