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Chocolate and Music - ORIGINAL POEM

I wish I could be who the alcohol makes me,
Someone with little cares, who can speak with ease,
No longer waiting for the other shoe to drop,
Floating in space, rooted to the ground, painfully aware or absentee,
Never knowing when I can finally let out a sigh of relief,
Or when the mighty wrath of God would land to turn my world to chaos,
Leaving only my mistakes and I, everything else turned to dust, in its wake,
And I know this is my cross to bear, bear it I have all my life,
And I know I must live, for I must tell all and write it in beautiful, honest ways,
For others will also see and know all I have felt all my life,
But I only know sorrow in those moments of pure dread,
As the world and humanity ceases to exist and I only wish to self destruct,
But there is a single thread I cling to day in, day out,
And it is this thread I hold, my lifeline in times of distress,
Though I know not what it ties me to, nor why I cling to it so,
If only just to remember laughter, music and the taste of chocolate on my tongue.