They are a feeling words aren't able to describe. Its peace. Its freedom, but its so much more than that. They are the happiness in my heart. The joy in my smile. The peace in my sleep.
They saved me from a dark place, somewhere I couldn't get out on my own. They are the best thing that happened to me and I couldn't stop thinking of them if I tried.
If I hadn't met them I wouldn't be typing this right now they've done some much for me and to help me. They've taken care of me where I wasn't able to and where I still cant. They are my whole world and I don't ever know haw to tell them. I do my best but some how I cant put into words when I'm talking to them. And my biggest fear I was and will always be loosing them. don't get me wrong ive been thru shit and I cant deal with a lot ive had to for years on my own. But losing them that's one I don't come back from. that's a blow I don't heal from. That's so much more than just loosing my partner its my best friend my muse my joy my peace my happiness my reason to fight. My very soul. Because worth out them its empty id be a shell for the rest of my exitance. because that's not a life. There is no beauty in that. Its a lonely pitiful exitance. but I couldn't end my life because they'd not want that and I made a promise to live on if I lost them for any reason, but I don't know if I could because with out them its not worth it. but id have to
but i do have them and these are just the passing fears and thoughts of anxiety, the lies you mind tells you from the trauma of the past and pain. But they aren't that person who hurt me. They are the one who saved me and for that I owe them the world, but sadly all i have is my heart. i just have to hope that's enough.
