Unexpected (Ace Frehley)

hallucinations

I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, laying as far away from the edge as possible. I feel sick, the thought of somebody watching my sleep, it makes me vulnerable and scared. I don't even remember if i locked the door. Scared i stand up to feel the door already locked. "Savanna, you already checked the door three times". I jump back in the bed, moving closer to Ace. "I'm scared". He wraps his arms around me, pulling me closer. "Your safe". Easier said than believed. I trie to close my eyes and hold on to Ace's arms, feeling his hot breath in my neck, drifting off to sleep and hoping i never wake up.

Unfortunatly i do. It's still dark outside, i feel next to me, Ace not being there. I start to panick, i know he's downstairs, but i don't want to go alone. It feels like an endless tunnel, just like my thoughts. As i walk it becomes darker and darker until i reach a lightswitch, but as i travel further in hope there's another one along the road, i end up finding nothing. It's all empty. I push myself, standing up and opening the door. There's nothing there, there's nothing here. Goosebumps creep up my back, as i walk down the stairs in fear. I know there's nobody in the house anymore, but i can't process it. My walk turns into a run as i head for the kitchen. "ACE?" I look around, looking nowhere, i'm going insane. I slide down the kitchen counter, hands in my hair as i close my eyes, hands wrapping around my knees, my body shaking, flincing at the touch of Ace's hands. "It's fine, it's fine". My eyes fly across the kitchen, paranoid. "I'm going insane, i can't take it anymore".  Heavely breathing as tears stream down my face. "Just breath in, it's fine, there's nothing wrong". I shake my head. "No, you don't get it, i want to die, i can't take it anymore, i need help, please help me". My nails claw into his hands as i look at him for reassurance. He slowly fades away from my eyes. "NO, ACE, WHERE ARE YOU GOING, COME BACK". I crie, feeling around the kitchen floor, everything turns to pitch black, as i crawl back against the kitchen counter. "PLEASE, HELP ME, I NEED HELP, I'M SORRY, i want help". My eyes close as tears flow down my cheecks. "I need help". My body aches, i've never been this scared, for nothing. I can't see, i can't hear, i can't feel, i'm trapped, i'm trapped in my mind, in my body. "Please help me". I whisper into the pitch black. I don't want this, help me, it's so fucking empty. My head becomes lighter and lighter as i feel my body getting pressed down. The air becomes thick in my lungs and eyelids become heavy. "Nobody can help you but yourself"

I shoot up, sitting right up on the bed, looking around as tears stream down my face. I look around the room, Ace sleeping peacefully. The air in my lungs refreshes, the pressure gets taken off my body, my head getting heavier again, my eyes look around the dark for something i'll never find. I grab the sheets, trying to hold on to something, i squeeze my eyes shut and lean back against Ace, i can't take this anymore.