Eros

Chapter 1

I walked into my office and threw my belongings onto my desk as I heard a voice sound from my door, "Hey Araya, our fearless leader said you are supposed to shadow with me for the day." I turned on my heels to rest my eyes on a 40-year-old man leaning against the door frame to my office. He was a bit taller than me and gave off an egotistical vibe. His eyes filled with azure oceans and his hair was like a flowing river of honey resting just above his broad shoulders. He wasn't really my type, and he was older so I know nothing will happen. I rolled my eyes at the man with a smirk resting on my lips, "Oh great, I don't want to be stuck with you all day." I sarcastically spat. The man let out a deep chuckle, his chest rising up and down as he laughed. "Well, that sucks for you. You're stuck with me!" Declan said, a sparkle in his eyes catching my attention. I sighed heavily and slipped my purse's strap over my shoulder, "Fine, let's go." 

I sat in the passenger seat of his car, awkwardly waiting for a conversation to spark. We have thrown jokes at each other throughout the day, and I began feeling very comfortable with him. This started to scare me, I don't like to open up this quickly and I already told him things that I wouldn't tell most people within an hour of being alone with him. I told him that I was bisexual before I've even told my family and most of my friends. I felt Declan's eyes on me for a moment as I was deep into thought, "What are you thinking, Raya?" he asked softly. I pried my eyes from the forest I became fixated. "Uh nothing, I'm okay.", I mumbled softly. Looking into his eyes became so intense, I had to pry my eyes from his. I felt the connection that I have with him, and I realize that I have been flirting with him with no precautions. "Okay, well if I can do anything let me know. You are a lot like my partner, maybe we should get you two together, so you have another person to talk to." Declan yammered on; I felt my heart drop when he mentioned his partner which caused confusion to rush throughout my brain. Why do I care if he is with someone? I do not have any romantic feelings for him whatsoever. I mumbled "Ok." and almost strained my neck as I looked back out the window. My heart felt heavy, and an immense amount of jealousy overtook my body. "So, tell me about your partner." I said, trying my best to keep a positive affect. I refused to look at Declan as he spoke, afraid that he will see the jealousy in my eyes. "Her name's Alison, we've been together for about a year. I'm polyamorous but hasn't been with anyone else while with her." Declan explained, glancing at me occasionally. I never really understood polyamory but was accepting of it. "Ugh my stomach is really bothering me right now.", Declan complained with a pained face. I chuckled and looked at him with a smile plastered onto my lips. "That's what happens when you're old." I joked causing Declan to look at me with a cheesy grin on his face. I let myself admire the man sitting beside me, going over every feature of his face. His dorky smile, his ocean blue eyes... It took me a moment to realize that I still had a smile spread across my face as I stared at him, I panicked and looked away forcing myself to keep a straight face. 

I set my purse down on my bed and slid my phone out of my pants pocket, I noticed a Facebook notification on my lock screen. Declan had sent me a friend request, I accepted but didn't allow myself to message him. I can't get closer to him... He will just hurt me, or I will hurt him.