LEGACY || Jungwon x Engene

End of an era

Today is the end of my life...

Maybe I'm being dramatic, but that's what I keep repeating myself as I cry my heart out, seating on these damp stairs.

These damp stairs are backdoor stairs.

And this backdoor belongs to the biggest house in town.

Whilst the biggest house in town belongs to Jeon Jungkook's family.

Jeon Jungkook is the proclaimed superstar of Decelis University, where I've been studying for the past two years. He also happens to be my crush.

I've had these unilateral feelings towards him since my first year in Highschool, six years ago. Ever since my big brother brought him home after the first day of school, along with his group of friends.

I was invisible at the time, and terribly shy, so he never took a second look at me. But even when I finally glowed up and became -dare I say- famous at school, he still treated me as Theo's little sister, even when we only have two years between us.

What made things even harder, was that he seemed to always be in a relationship. He would date people for a more or less extended amount of time, but would immediately start dating again after any break up. As if he had a waiting list. (Which wasn't far from the truth actually...)

Because of this situation, I never found the courage to tell him how I felt, nor even tried to flirt with him in any way.

And today, he invited everyone to his place to celebrate the end of his undergraduate program. In two days, he leaves for the other side of the world to pursue his studies. Which means this party puts an end to any hope I had left.

So, I cry.

I cry so hard I can't hear the people partying in the background anymore.

So hard, that I forget about the beer on these stairs that's soaking my dress right now.

I cry for those six years of cowardice that I pay for today.

I cry for my broken heart.

And I cry because, in this moment, I feel like I will never ever feel this way about someone again.

Not in this lifetime.