I'm 14 and I can't belive in myself.. It kinda hurts. I watched a singing show and I was like.. wow.. A girl from our country, not too far from me in the tv, with a freaking good voice.. She speaks 3 languages, she's 15 years old and looks freaking good too. She's awesome. Why can't I be like her?..
I had a dream since I was 6-7. I wanted to go to that show. And actually my parents tought that I had a good voice. But now.. I don't feel like it.. I was 8-9 when I stopped singing and working on my voice. My friends would say that I still have a pretty good voice. I can't really trust them anymore.. Giving up wasn't a good idea but what could I do?.. I had no one who belives in me. I had nothing to do. So I gave up. I started singing again but I think I'll give up again because I have to admit that I can't get everything I want.
You probably think that I don't have to be perfect. Or that if I want to be perfect I have to work hard for that. I actually do want to be perfect and you're right, I didn't work hard. But I tried.. I didn't gave up 'cause I wanted to give up. Why would I do such a thing? It was because of the people. No one was there to help. And me, a little 9 years old girl, what could I do?.. A little 9 years old girl aganist the school, the world, and everyone.
When I started singing again everyone was in shock. They forgot the little girl with the beautiful voice.. So did I.. The girl who actually had people around her for years.. People who belived in her.. The girl who actually belived in herself, and sang for their classmates 'cause she tought she was a superstar because of her voice.. The girl who was humiliated by her classmates every day.. And the girl who could cry for hours because her mother were neve there for her.. Her father left for another woman.. And didn't had any friends to play with.. The girl with "no normal family".. The girl with no friends.. And the girl with no voice....
