Wasn't Meant To Be

Chapter 25

Errors Ahead

Message

Never underestimate the power of music. The emotions that took over me was too powerful at di ko napigilan ang sarili. Huminga akong malalim matapos itipa ang napakahabang message, ate Andre already told me not to confess again but I'm desperate for results. I know nung nakaraan asar na asar ako dahil sa indirect confession niya pero heto ako nagawa ng love message, there is a reason why family makes fun of me pagdating sa love life, because I suck on it. Tanga ako sa pagibig. Masama man o maganda ang kahihinatnan nito at least I made something happen, something will end and something may start. Also naiirita nadin ako dahil matapos ng indirect na confession na iyon hindi na muling nagparamdam si Cassius ng isang lingo, I hate it when he does that.

Matapos icheck ang aking message walang pagaalinlan kong isinend ito sa kaniya at naghintay ng reply.

Hey, guess what? I'm confessing again idk kung pang ilan na toh, lol. The past few months patay sindi yung nararamdaman ko because I'm trying hard to let go of the feelings then I realized, I will never get to let go of it. Nakakatawa na nakakainis kasi paikot ikot nalang palagi hahaha. That time when Pennie told me na you like me I told myself I don't want to get hurt and never have feelings for you again, I'm not even sure if what Pennie said was real, I still don't think it is. I never had the courage to ask you kasi you usually prank me na you like me. But for the hundredth time I failed, you always find ways to enter my effin heart. Again, bagong proof nanaman na babalik at babalik yung feelings ko potah, kahit di ka nagpaparamdam nahuhulog padin ako taena.

Bal this time I don't think these feelings are just classified as "like". I don't really know what love is but I think this is it. Kahit minsan confused ako, naasar sayo, kahit hindi ka naman super special na type ng tao, kahit wala kang pake sa akin at puros banat lang tayo I realized I don't give a fuck. I just wanna stay and be in love with you. Kahit gaano pa kadami yang mga kinukwento mong babae I don't care. Yes, parang tanag lang and I won't blame you ako naman tong may sira sa ulo eh.

Fuccc this is effin cringey but I wanted to do this, I want these thoughts out. Lam mo ba sinabihan pako ni ate Andra not to confess anymore kasi every time I do I get hurt over and over again, pero I'll take the risk. Walang forever, madami pang lalaki dyan and for sure mas marami pang worth it pero as of now I will choose you bal walang malalim na dahilan it's just my choice. Bal I won't effin wait for you to like me back, I'll just let these feelings stay until it fades. But if ever you have feelings for me and want me please? Just please have the guts to ask me out, please take the risk too.

That was a hell of a message at maya maya naman nag reply siya sa akin.

From Cassius:

Wala akong masabi.

Me:

Sa hinaba haba ng message ko wala siyang masabi?

From Cassius:

Wala akong masabi kasi kinikilig ako.

Tss. I thought to myself.

Me:

Good night na nga, baka magrounded pako.

Although I'm not really gonna sleep, I want him to say something!

From Cassius:

Hahaha

weee

I love you.

Tulog kana.

It's really easy for him to say I love you even if he doesn't mean it.

Me:

Mas mahal kita, I'm sure of that.

Walang preno kong inireply. I have no time for jokes and just simply landian, but the jerk probably is.

From Cassius:

Yiee kinikilig ako, kiss kita dyan eh.

I know na humihirit lang siya but I fell kilig din sa kalagitnaan ng mga chat namin. Ngunit matapos pa ang mga ilang hirit I woke up from reality.

Me:

Wag tayo puros landian momshie ah.

Ayoko magaya sa pinsan ko na puros lande wala naman label buest.

And his reply?

From Cassius:

Omai

I closed my eyes anddecided to sleep with a heavy heart because I knew then this friendship and 

Author's Note:

Medyo gago lang haha. Napaka conry niyo mga potah kayo