Fuck You, I hate u for wut u did

To Mr.Poser

I hate you but I like u i dont know what I feel at all.
Sometimes I feel like I'm like a sophomore. but then again i don't know why i dreamed about u i don't know why i saw u going down those stairs when there was a crowd around, idk why i see u looking at me in a crowd. I heard that when I dream something it's because it's happening in another universe or timeline or version idk. But that me in another life clearly is doing better than me right shares now, as u notice her there. The blank  you gave me were probably because you caught me staring at you.  what i will always fine weird is the fact that i send u a text saying "ur not the prettiest boy in the world but neither r u the ugliest, n i like i don't care if u like me back or not but i don't wanna be left on seen".and u responded " do i even know u", my friends and a part of me thinks u did know who i was but it felt weird cuz it was ur birthday or something. i make up stupid excuses for u u dont even remember me at all or idk maybe u do but since i wus being a bitch when i tried to talk to me u dint want to takk to me anymore, u said " oh i remember u, u were the smart gir in 5th grade" N i said "Fuck u fuck of___". i guess you'll never know it was because i eus asking a friend of mine how her coming out story wus. Because i am bisexual n i didn't kno wut to do about it my family still doesn't believe me it tht maters but, i really dint eant to talk to u right there and then. I really did like you and I don't even know why but I developed this fear from u thi fear of not wanting to see you at all, this fear of hiding from you, this fear of if I saw you going up the stairs I would leave and turn the other way. I hated myself for tht i hate myself for doing this for letting you have that much control over me. I hate you. i hated that we would always bump into each other in school even though it was massive n i wus in magnet n u were regular. I hate the fact that the stairs doomed me. I will always come across you one way or another. I hated the fact that you made me scared of skateboards. im terifyof skateboards n just so u know its ur fault fuck u the lound bangs u would do on the floor, the flexing i would do n yeah uk when u said u were a poser u really are one so fuck u _____. The sound of u skating behind me always scared me. I would move to the grass if I heard a skateboard. the fact that i heard u talking shit about me to ur lil brother n i stick the middle finger out at u, i loved that.  but u know wut i hate the most is the fact that u were just my crush n i couldn't control anything, i did. I dont know why i did this i know u never felt anything for me but why would u stare at me tht way fuck u its like i actually cared, n everytime i eould enm stopbu stared even more. the last time i saw u wus 06/10 or more like the last time u saw me, if u did at culmination. But the last time i saw u wus on 08/16 why because u started school 2 days after me. How do i know that dont even ask, u will never know the real me n i will never know the real u . But let me tell you what I thought . I thought you were a weak insecure little boy that would glare at people because you could but that's it. You were broken inside. I knew this because you acted differently before and after covid. I don't know wut i went through but i went through shit too so, we were both broken. I found out u were gonna date someone but u dont somehow idk and idc. What I do know is that ur brother n u stalks my hs acc so hey wtf it's not even your school go do ur crappy school shit. N let me tell u something i know u come out early on Thursday and Friday that way i am terrified on those days, but lately i've forgotten i've felt more free since u moved. I realized that not having someone to impress makes you extremely happy but I kinda like the twin but idk he has a mean stare. I kinda feel like he hates me idk. But wit i do know is that i have haters who would've thought, its true u know when ur popular u really dont know how popular u r until u get haters, i luv how people are jealous of me hahaha (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠).  Anyways also ur lil friend ___ he actually all ur friends except the couple r anoying n i hope they go fuc off just like u.

Oh I know my Grammer is amazing isn't it 🤗. Oh also Fuck love n fuck relationships specially the toxic ones.