Into the Depths... AU Ninjago FanFiction

Chapter 24

"Interesting. How long have you heard that voice?" Nya asked bringing me back to the here and now.

"About 8 years, roughly." I answered as I thought about seeing the others. It hurt putting up walls, but I was doing it to protect them. 

"You coming out of you're room with me, or do you still need more time?" She tilted her head to the side curiously. I didn't know how to answer, because I managed to talk to Lloyd without my hands lighting up and I managed to get through an episode of my t.v. Series without them acting up as well.

"Honestly, I don't know." I answered truthfully. "I'll try, if they spark up again I'm coming back in here."

"It's a start." Nya said as she stood up and walked out. I took a deep breath in and let it out carefully. It'll be alright. I thought as I got up and headed towards my door. I reached for the handle, but hesitated. What if they reject me? What if they turn their backs on me, like everyone else in my life? I grabbed the handle as those thoughts raced through my head. "Stay calm, they just want to make sure I'm ok." I told myself as I turned the handle and walked out the door.

I walked down the hallway and found my friends sitting at the table, looking my way.

"Hey, we just wanna talk." Cole said as I sat down facing everyone. I kept my breathing steady. Don't freak out. I thought as Lloyd place his  hand over mine. He must've felt something was off about me.

"Alright, go for it." I said as everyone started asking questions.

"I hope you don't mind me asking, but what happened earlier?" Zane asked recalling my behaviour earlier in the day.

I sighed as I thought about how to explain. "When you check Ray and said that he was in bad shape, rage filled every part of me and it triggered my elemental power. I didn't want to hurt anyone so I tried to isolate myself, that failed so umm... now I'm trying to find a different way to control my power."

They all looked at me in silence. Their expressions were unreadable, except for Lloyd's and Nya's. At least now I can say that I tried and failed utterly. I thought as everyone stood up and walked to me. I stood up -unsure whether they intended to hurt me or not.

"Thank you for telling us." Cole said as everyone gave me a group hug. 

"Thanks for understanding." I whispered as I hugged them back. Phew, at least that's one fear faced.

"Can I ask you guys something?" I said as the hug broke off and everyone went back to their chairs.

"What is it, Kai?" Jay asked giving me a curious look.

"How's Ray holding up?" I asked, fear creeping up my spine as they exchanged looks among themselves. Uh oh! Me and Lloyd looked at each other. It might not be as bad as you think. I tried to tell myself keeping my hands close to me, just in case they decided to act up.

"Kai, uhh..." Cole started as he sighed. Please don't say it, please don't say it! I pleaded silently. "He umm... he died as soon as the doctor's tried to help." He continued as everyone looked at me sadly. 

"No..." I mumbled as my hands felt like they were in a bonfire. Calm down, Kai. Don't loose control. I tried to keep it together but anger and sadness dominated all hope of me keeping my cool. I walked to the tap and let the water put out the fire that was building up. 

"Kai, I'm sorry..." Jay started but I just glared, rage that Jay thought he understood what I was going through made my glare all the more heated.

"Don't, Jay, don't even go there." I shot back as I turned off the tap. I wanted to rant, but it wouldn't do me any good. I started to take deep breaths in and slowly letting them out.

"Are you ok, Kai?" Lloyd asked as he held my hand.

"No, I'm not! I thought that I'd finally have a family again and it just fell apart." I snapped as I looked at everyone. They all looked shocked at my reaction. "I thought things would go back to normal but things just went haywire!" I raged.

"Gah!" Lloyd yelled as he let go of my hand. His hand was burnt!

"Are you alright, Lloyd?" Cole asked as he looked at his hand. Everyone looked like they were going to kill me, even though Lloyd tried not to make a big deal about it. 

"I'm fine, really." He said as Zane placed his hand in Lloyd's. The nindroid immediately cooled Lloyd's hand with his powers and brought out bandages. I watched as Zane treated Lloyd's hand before turning back to everyone else. The didn't look at me like a friend. Only a monster who burnt his true love.

"I didn't mean to..." I muttered as I fled from the room. I knew I should've just stayed isolated! I fumed. 

"Kai, come back!" Lloyd called as he followed me. I raced outside and conjured my dragon flying to the one place no one would look for me. "Kai!" He yelled again. I was too far to only just make out his last cry for me to come back.

Tears pricked my eyes as my brain kept rewinding how they reacted. "I knew I shouldn't have left my room." I told myself as I flew to the one place that was always surrounded by water. I didn't look back as I flew towards the sun. If I did, I'd immediately go back and end up putting myself out of my misery. Not being able to control myself, the dragon burst into a thousand sparks as I arrived at my destination. . .