I know I still have thoughts, both good and bad. My boyfriend, Abel. Whom I've mentioned a few times, sometimes when I'm feeling 'down' I go to him... Because he makes me feel better, brings light to my darkness. But this particular conversation we had was new to both of us really... I had mentioned that I wasn't good enough for him and that he deserved someone better. That I didn't deserve his love, and what he next surprised me so much. He said this:
"I don't need anybody else but you okay? And it doesn't matter if you deserve me or not, that doesn't matter what matters is that I love you no matter what and you'll always be the one for me. No other girl could or will take your place ever okay your all that I need I'm happy with you and only you."
Just reading that made me so happy and it brought me to tears, sometimes all I need is for him to explain something so simple as that to brighten up my day and bring a smile to my face.
I had asked him why he was always sad when I was and he said this:
"Because I have a part of your heart within me. When two hearts become so close, it's almost like the beats are the same like they are in synch. I'm sad when your sad because my heart is connected to yours, so the sadness you feel, I will feel with you as well. And besides, why should I be happy when your not, why should I be smiling when you aren't?."
He always knows the right things I say to me..... I love to hear his voice, and I love to be in his arms.... It's makes me happy to know that he cares so much. ☺️
YOU ARE READING
My suicide story...
Teen FictionI don't know why I would, but I figured that I'd write down what I've been feeling. So read if you will, it might be sad and it might just make sense, who knows... Enjoy my thoughts I suppose.
