My diary

Diary entry NO.1

Diary entry Monday, October 3. rd

Today I did argue with my father again. It may be my own mistake or it may not be. I am not sure myself. I just wanted him to acknowledge me. But yet once again I am the worst one. Once again. I did not fucked up I guess. I just want to be. His son once again. I can feel that he is not proud of me. I can just sense that he does not acknowledge me as my son. It tis are just sensible from his actions. I just refuse to believe I am his son. I just. Want to feel free? This is just too much. I deal with my problems. I do take care of the problems of the others but it's just. So overwhelming. I just. Want to die? And perish to eternal oblivion. I do not deserve this entirety. I do not deserve this life. I just know it. Yet people tell me that I do matter. Yet I just know that I do not matter. That is it all to my today's entry. Thank you for reading this entry.