I thought there might not be no hope after everything that has gone on in my life. I guess you can say I am really stupid for thinking a football player like James could ever like me but he was only using me. But I don't know what to do anymore I feel like I am nothing in this world. He got suspended form school and I am the one got him in trouble. But to be honest its not my fault he should never had took advantage of me and he knows it. He did it to get back at me for telling on him for hitting me. But I was just look out for his brother Justin at the time cause his brother always gets hurt cause of James.
But I can't change my feelings I can't help that he is a player and has cheated on Kristina Like 4 times. But she so blind by him she doesn't see it. I feel bad for cause shes going to get hurt by I stupid fucking ass hole like James. But she hates me so she would never listen to what I half to say I lost a lot of friends. But I don't know if I did the right thing or not. Did I do the right thing of telling on James for making video of me lifting my shirt showing by boobs?!?!?!?!? But I don't know he told me he deleted but apparently he nap shot it to make it look like I sent him nudes. But I didn't So that's why his girlfriend is pissed of at me.
What should have done I lied to my parents the first time telling them that I was getting picked on.
So here's what Happen:
He took a video of me showing him my boobs and then he he told me he deleted it but he just took a snap shot of it. The next day witch was Tuesday I heard that he posted on some social website. And when I heard this I tried to kill my self By chocking myself and only a couple kids tried to stop me, the resat were just staring or was in the front minding their own business. But I wanted to kill myself so I can end this I thought he might just have a little bit of feeling for me but I guess I was wrong. I can't I believe that I let him do this to me after everything me and him did together but I guess I was just a toy to him but guess what hes was the stupid one to post it not me I am not the idiot who posted it where everyone can see it even grown ups to be honest. He did it not me! I thought he might like me for ounce but I was nothing too him while hes texting other girls and cheating on his girlfriend with other girls online. I wish I can tell Kristina but she hates me too much to even talk to me and I feel really bad cause I see all their comments saying they love each other and shit but I don't think James means it . But what do I know I am just I screw up... Right?
