Saints Row: Bullet to the Heart

Chapter 28

When they arrived at the house. Kyouki was still fuming. Truth be told, she seemed calm. Going to the trunk, she elbowed the doorbell. Aisha answered shortly. "Here, let me help." Taking what was in her friend's hands. "What did they run out of bags?" Aisha chuckled when Brian entered after.

Kyouki still said nothing, but her heart hurt, fighting the urge not to cry. She blinked back the tears that were blurring her vision. On her last trip to the car, she carried the bags and went right to the kitchen. Aisha was putting things away and Brian hung his coat up then quietly sat on the sofa watching what was playing on the television.

The water was running, and Kyouki was washing the vegetables for the night's dinner. Aisha said nothing but looked occasionally at the young woman grinding her teeth. Kyouki stopped, shut the water off, tossed what was in her hands in the sink, her head hanging low. Silently crying, she felt arms around her.

Patting Kyouki's back. "Go relax, I'll handle this." Aisha whispered.

Kyouki nodded, grabbing her jacket to put it in her room.

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Gat woke from a nap. Hearing the front door tossed a warm pair of sleep pants on, then headed down, seeing Brian sitting on the sofa. "Sup." Brian greeted him in return. They both heard the water running, then shut off. Then, seeing Kyouki's eyes red, wiping away tears as she excused herself to her room. He looked at Brian, who shook his head and turned back around. Gat went to the kitchen. "What happen?"

"I'm not sure she just stopped. Started crying, so I told her to rest."

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Johnny was already at her door, opening it to see Kyouki curled up facing the wall on the bed. Closing the door behind him, he locked it. Going over to the bed, he sat rubbing her shoulder to get her to open up. She wasn't budging. She curled tighter and shrugged away.

"Who did it? Brian out there? Cause I will kill him the second I walk out this door."

"Wasn't him." She turns over on her left side. "You would kill for me?"

"All I need is a name."

Ky weighed that. She closed her eyes and felt new tears burning. Shifting to sit up, and looked Johnny in the eye. He wiped her tears with his thumb. "Hm?"

"Johnathan Gat."

"Huh?"

She sniffed. "Get out." Kyouki laid back down on her side, facing away from Gat. He sat looking at her, confused. She wanted him dead?

"Baby, what happened?"

Li's jaw tightened. "You happen, you and your... you-ness."

"What do that mean?"

"I'm concluding you don't want me to be happy, ever."

"You need to explain what happened? How are you not happy?"

Kyouki sobbed and sniffed some more. Gat sat waiting, but she was still silent. He needed to know so he could try to help or get Ish to help. "Ky, what's up?"

Kyouki wasn't leader of the Saints right now; she was Kyouki James. She knew she was missing things that happened before shit went down, people in her life from then and now. In her frustration, this gnawing feeling from what they, Laura and Aisha had said and was brought up with her encounter with Troy. Kyouki would send Johnny to finish what he started, with how she was feeling.

"Why am I not with my family? They should be here. Why am I not with Troy? It's near Christmas and this will be the first year I'm not.... Everything has changed since that day... I'm awake. I don't know what is going on anymore. I-I can't focus on anything, but everything from that nigh keeps being brought up." The feeling of being alone, having to be alone this time of year, it just all boiled down to stress behind the guilt, and lies, she had been telling herself, and dealing with from before her coma to now. That she is alright.
She sobs again, replaying the fight that shouldn't have been from earlier. "Why did you have to kill those people to get to Troy? Why couldn't you just leave it alone when you found out we were together? What is it about Troy that you had to drive that wedge? Now I'm pissed at him for nearly getting me shot, and for what? Why can't you just talk to me?" Looking over her shoulder at him. "I can't really blame you for my family, but I can fully blame you one million percent for Troy." Facing him fully, the tears slowing. She's just venting.