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Mental Month CH3

Once done we sat down and ate during dinner Sadie wouldn't leave me alone saying things like "why did you leave e there?" or "did you know it could have been the other way around?" and "what if you didn't go to my funeral?". We finish dinner and I cleared off the table and did the dishes after that I took a shower and went to bed.

About a week later I had my first therapy session she had me lie down and space out "deeply tune in with yourself block out everything picture yourself in a room with white walls and now picture what's bothering you.." I did as asked I was in a white room with Sadie. "Now picture it being scared of you, you overpowering it, you being the bigger person." I picture me being taller than Sadie, Sadie being scared of me.... But it didn't work it made me feel bad so I shot up. "Are you okay?" "Y-yeah im good..." "beep beep beep beep-" "that's our time." "Okay." I replay with. I get up. My dad comes to pick me up and drops me off at rosewood, toby wanted to talk. I walk over to our met-up spot and he is there. "Hay tobtobs." "hay mike!" we do our handshake and then we sit and talk "so you needed to talk?" I ask curiously "oh yeah, I wanted to know..if you would go out with me?" "hum?" I say caught off guard "uh s-sure" "cool!" he said clearly embarrassed "w-well I have chores s-so I have to go." "oh yeah, okk see ya mike!" I kiss his cheek "see y-ya." I walk home trying to overpower Sadie. I make it home and help mom set the table we sit down to eat. "Mikey we have some...important news..." "yeah..?" "your other and I are getting... divorced.." "what..." I ran up to my room and looked myself up and didn't come out for a while about 2 weeks later toby came over, and I had to let him in.

He stayed over for a night and kinda gave me a therapy session about a week later it was at Sadies funeral, I wore a dark blue suit I had to give a speech at her funeral, but after she kept bugging me that it was my fault and I was over it I couldn't handle it anymore we had a huge augment in the end I said something that made her mad enough to leave after not hearing from her for the rest of the day I go to bead and still didn't hear from Sadie after a few therapy sessions my depression clears. Even though my parents got divorced and my dad moved across town I still get to see him on weekends. I also learned that you don't chaos everything bad and people can't just walk all over you.