Settle down

Chapter 1- Lola

It's hard being new. It really is. Believe me, I know. I've tried it all. Being new in town as a young child and not being allowed to play with the other childrens toys. Being new in school and being forced to give an introduction about yourself to the rest of the class while half of them is drawing or picking their nose, and the other half is laughing at you. Being new and realizing that you are moving so often that you can try to be any kind of person that you want. Being new and having extreme confidence and becoming popular in a day, because of your reputation from earlier schools. Being new and trying to make friends just to be torn apart from them shortly after and lastly, being new and just trying to fit in. Not even attempting to make friends, not giving a crap of what people say about you and just being a nobody. Yes, that's me. Hi, I'm Lola.

The reason I am constantly new is because of my parents, or my dad mostly. He has a huge company that require him to travel to different places all the time. He is always busy with work, he says that he loves it but I don't know. I don't know him at all. I used to have a great relation with my dad, we always went to football and hockey games together, we used to play fight, we used to prank my older brother and my younger sister and we used to drive the neighbors crazy with laughter. He used to be my best friend, well my only friend. Now I have none.

To be honest it's not all bad. The income is great I suppose. I can definitely say that I have everything I could ever need and more, however that's not quite what I want. I love my family more than anything, but we barely have a relationship. We talk, yes, but it only on the surface. I know that my dad feels the same way, but he don't know how to handle it. I am given expensive clothes, flatscreens, bags, shoes, basically what any other girl would die for. But I'm not any other girl. To briefly describe myself I'll just say that a lot of the money I get, I donate to charity.

Wherever I am, there is one thing that never changes and that's my music. I adore music and everything about it. I love how music can deliver feelings better than words and how it can set a mood perfectly. It's like poetry, but not as boring.

I do realize that I sound a lot like a hippie or a very dull person who hate money, but that is not entirely the case. I don't dislike money or the "rich life", I am just not impressed by it. We move to a bigger and bigger house every time we move and the friends I think I get just wants to hang out with me because of the luxury. It sounds wrong to say it, but I'm almost slightly embarrassed about it. I would treasure a smaller apartment or a one floor house for once.

One more fact about me. I love writing. It's like talking, but without being interrupted or questioned. I can get all my feelings out and it keeps me from going mad.Well I guess that's everything I'll write for now, I need to get my beauty sleep. Tomorrow is my first day in the new school. Yes, new again....