𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞

𝘥𝘰𝘤𝘦

𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐨𝐡 𝐇𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝
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"𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧"

drying my hands i huffed at my ringing phone answering the phone.

"yeah?" i said lowly trying not roll my eyes

"come outside" amir said making me suck my teeth

"just come inside i'm here alone i'll unlock the door" i said hanging up

anna mae by summer walker resumed playing i walked to the front door unlocking the locks going back to the kitchen. shortly after amir came in walking towards the kitchen with a bouquet of flowers. normally what would a cute gesture just made me more annoyed because i knew he was using it as an apology gift. it had only been two days since our last conversation and i thought i was over it but seeing him again just further reminded me of why i was upset to begin with.

"wassup?" i asked leaning against the counter looking at him

"what are we doing lo? like i understand why you're upset about what happened but this ignoring each other shit ain't gon keep working. tell me what you need from me so i can make better want a thousand apologies i got it, want a break fine i just need to know what you want me to do."

awe he looks stressed same way i felt

"i need you to realize how you hurt my feelings amir you've never raised your voice, cussed at me, or taken your anger out on me and you know what you did? all three, i didn't deserve the way you treated me at all it was so uncalled for. you lied to me then ignored me for days when all i was trying to do was make you feel better or at least try to help you.

"a thousand apologies isn't going to make up for the fact that you hurt my feelings way worse than i think you understand. i want you to see you work on your communication not you just say you're going to be better you can tell me however many times you're going to do better but it doesn't matter unless you put forth the effort." i said

"i don't wanna keep breaking up or taking breaks i want us to be able to work out our problems without the temporary solution of a break that obviously hasn't been helping us out. i want you to be able to tell what's going on with you so i can be your support system, you've got this wall built up you gotta let me in mir. i can't help you if you keep shutting down on me we aren't grown but we're old enough to be able to have a genuine conversation with each other. you're my best friend i just wish you're able to see that for yourself. i don't wanna keep having one sided beefs with you i want us to be good and stay that way not just be good for a few months or weeks." i added making him nod

i had it in my mind to just sit and be silent but there was just too much i wanted to get off my chest. the more i thought what happened the more upset i got and everytime i thought about it i ended up in tears.

"so we're good now that's it i've said all i need to say tired of crying about tired of talking about it"

if i let it stay on my mind too long i'd fixate on it and then the problem would never be fixed

"i made you cry?" amir frowned

one thing he hated more than anything was seeing me cry and knowing he was the reason behind the tears. it had a lot to do with his mom and dad there was a period before they broke up where all his mom did was cry because of him and he vowed to never make me feel the same way his dad made his mom felt. i know that he was disappointed in himself because he wouldn't look at me at all his head was lowered and it look like he was saying something to himself.

"it's okay jojo" i said softly walking around the counter standing in between his legs

"nah it ain't ion like that shit" he shook his head making me sigh

"joseph it's okay i swear we're good" i tried to reason with him

"ian crying right now this was so long ago it's okay"

"i'm so sorry shiloh whatever you want me to do i'll do it i swear" he wrapped his arms around my waist

"i want you to do better for yourself not just me or our relationship" i told him kissing his forehead rubbing his head

hiiii i was gon make them break up again but i decided against that
vote comment allat & excuse mistakes
i missed y'all but until next time 3 more chapters
byeee❤️-mo
10/27/2022