"I have something to tell you."
After Billie said that. It got quiet. I was waiting for her to tell me what was up. Does she not want to do this anymore? with me?
She brushed it off when I asked so here I was at a car show with my little sister and brother and Billie. We just took them to dinner so the sky was getting dim.
They were so happy to get out for the day. I was happy I could make them happy. I just sat down on the bench as my siblings admired the vintage cars. I was spacing out from time to time, rethinking my whole life and as to why Billie had to tell me something and what it was.
Billie came up behind me and rested her hands on my shoulder and leaned down to my ear to whisper something to me.
"I think people fail to realize beautiful moments when they're in them." Billie said as she gave me a quick kiss on my cheek as her hands trailed slightly towards my chest.
She sat down on the bench next to me. Just looking up at the sky and I just watched my siblings talk to the owners of the cars and ask about the models. When I was away on my first tour, Autumn was a bit younger and he hated being away from me that long so I took pictures of the cars I would see and make him small magazines. I always loved the colors of the cars, especially the metallic ones. I made sure to write the models of the cars next to them because he wanted to know what his dream was going to be. Throughout all of the cars I sent to him, his favorite car is a beamer. an orange beamer in fact. When I took him today, he was talking the whole car ride about how he hopes to see an orange or red beamer like the ones I would send.
As me and Billie sat there, we intertwined our fingers and smiled. I saw Autumn and Juniper run up to us and Autumn seemed upset.
"Y/N. They didn't have one." Autumn said as he looked at me then looked at the ground.
I just gave him a pat on the back and a smile.
"We'll find one. I promise." I interlocked me and Autumn's pinkies and he smiled and nodded his head.
Right after that, he was on his way. Connecting his hands with Juniper and walking back to the cars, with not a care in the world.
"They're so cute." Billie smiled as she got up and pulled me up with my hands.
"Alright. come on. we're gonna take a little stroll." I smiled and nodded my head as we walked across the park. I still made sure to keep an eye on my younger siblings, bound to have a heart attack if i lost them.
Me and Billie walked around the park together. hand in hand. We just stood there in silence. Cats caught our tongue. I don't think we need to say anything.
Billie let go of our hands and now, we were like middle schoolers on a date. Awkward.
She just walked with her head down, resting her hands inside of her jacket pockets.
"I don't want to hurt him, Y/N." Billie mumbled out as she began to kick the rocks that laid upon the sidewalk.
"What do you mean?" I stop in my tracks and stop to look at her.
"I don't want to hurt him. by doing this." Billie gestures her hands between us.
"Is this what you wanted to tell me? You know earlier?"
"I didn't want to hurt you. You seemed so happy, i decided to leave it alone- Baby, I love you. You know that." Billie reaches her hand up to rest it on my shoulder and she gives me a look. that look. pity.
"Fuck you. If you didn't want to hurt him, then why are we doing this? If you want to be with him so badly, choose him." I move my shoulder out of her grasp before walking away.
"Y/N. you don't mean that."
When she said that. I just closed my eyes and took deep breaths.
"It's an awkward situation. I just want it to be done. I want to be through with it. you know?" Billie breathes out. I know she's trying to justify herself. I want to be the bigger person. I want to mature about this but I say the worst thing somebody you care about would say.
"I don't think I love you anymore Billie. I can't love you."
To be honest. I don't know why I said that. I was trying to hurt her feelings. I still have to drive us back. I was trying to make her feel the same way I feel.
useful yet unloved.
I had nothing to do after our argument. I just sat in the park and watched a bunch of old guys play chess. I watched as the vintage Rolls Royce turned on and made their way out of the park.
I rounded my younger siblings and Billie was nowhere to be found. I started to get worried. honestly I did.
I looked as much as I could and Just as we were heading to the car, I found her sitting at a bench. I ushered Autumn and Juniper into the car and went back to the bench to get Billie in the car.
"Billie. Come into the car. We have to get home." I thought she was gonna put up much more of a fight but she didn't. She just got in and didn't say a word back.
It will be even funner when we get back home.
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We sat on the sofa as my whole family talked about their day. Billie was still silent, but she still smiled at some of the things they said.
"Alright. I think it's time for bed babies." My mom said as she took my siblings to their room.
So now we were left alone with my step dad.
"You guys aren't very talkative tonight." Robert said as he stared at both of us.
Nothing is wrong with Robert. He's just white, loves protein shakes and is a tennis fiend.
"Stuff happened." I spoke up as I played with my fingers.
I look over to Billie and she's doing the same thing I am.
"Well, I won't be a bother. I'm going to bed. Goodnight kiddos." Robert said as he walked down the hall to his bedroom.
I didn't say anything to Billie, I just got up to take a shower in me and Billie's room.
I got my towel and turned on the water, letting it heat up before I hop in.
This night is going great.
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After my shower, I came out to see Billie laying on the bed. I get dressed and lay down on my side of the bed. Our backs are facing each other. We're both still and silent. I stared at the wall in front of me and unsure of her being asleep, I spoke.
"I'm sorry. I do love you. I don't know what I was thinking Bil. I just wanted to hurt your feelings like you were hurting mine." I sigh out. I feel Billie squirm around a bit. her back, still facing mine.
"I love you, Y/N. i'm sorry." Billie reaches her hand into the space of the middle of us and I grab her hand.
"I love you too." I interlock our fingers as we drift off.
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