On The Clock (Book 2)

Chapter 32: Fix That

Xavier had left the house, as he had gone to the store real quick. As it was that my mother had in fact asked for him to do. As it was that she had forgot an important part of her recipe on the dinner that she was in fact making for us tonight.
If it was not for the fact that Xavier was in fact so kind to her. And the fact that it was that he treated her like no other man ever had before. Than I felt like with the way that things were in fact going with Xavier right now. I would have told her long ago as to just what it was that had in fact happened at the park just about a week ago.
As it was that it seemed like those thoughts had in fact just seemed to have scarred me for what ever reason or another. As it was that I had actually been scared for all of our lives that day, never the less. As I had never been through some thing like that before, as much as Xavier told me that I needed to get used to it.
I kind of felt like he might be right, but I knew that my mother would not think the same way. And I knew that as much as it was that it did in fact just seem to be the fact that it was that I was upset at Xavier lately. I knew that he was only doing this, as it was clear that he was trying to help me.
I knew that it was, that I should in fact be grateful for it. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to let out quite a bit of a rough sigh to my self. Just as soon as it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have got my mind and my focus off of all of that, all at once.
How ever, as per usual, with my mom seeming to pay attention to me at all times, never the less. She just then did in fact just seem to have noticed me let out quite such a loud sigh. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to start to hear her voice. As it was that she just then did in fact just seem to start to speak as such a response to that, all at the exact same time too.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have looked on over towards my mother. I saw that she was in fact looking at me with a serious look on her face. As it was, that I just then did in fact just seem to start to begin to listen as to just what ever it was that my mother did in fact feel like she even needed to say right on over towards me just now, never the less.
"Are you alright Trevor?" I know that some thing is in your mind. You just haven't been acting the same the last few weeks..." She said to me, as it was clear that she was in fact a little bit scared for me. As it was that I could not blame her for that.
As I felt like any good mother would feel that way as to their son, never the less. As I knew that she was not just like any other mother. As I knew that she did in fact just seem to work her ass off non stop. That way she did in fact just seem to have a good life for me, never the less.
Which was even more the fact that it was that I knew that I did in fact not want to ruin what it was that was in fact going on with her and Xavier, none the less. As for perhaps the first time that I could say as such a thing in my own life. I felt like she was in fact truly happy, all at the exact same time too, none the less.
I knew that it was that I did in fact not want to ruin it, all at the exact same time too, at that. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to start to just go right on ahead. And I just then did in fact just seem to start to just make up a little bit of a lie to my mother, all at the exact same time too.
I kind of felt a little bit guilty about it, none the less. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to dip my head a little bit low to the ground. Just as soon as it was, that I just then did in fact just seem to start to begin to speak on over towards me, never the less.
Aa it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have done as such a thing like that, never the less. It did in fact just seem like she luckily did in fact not seem to suspect any thing from it what so ever. As it was clear that she was in fact simply just beginning to start to listen as to just what ever it was that I felt like I even needed to say towards her, all at the exact same time too, at that.
"Yeah... It's just a lot of thoughts to do with basketball mom... I'm kind of scared to take the next step..." I said to her, all at the exact same time too. As it was that I felt like those were in fact some wise words for a kid my age, all at the exact same time too.
As it was that I almost felt like it was that I did in fact want to be proud of my self, none the less. If it was not for the fact that I had in fact kind of told her a white lie, never the less. As it was that I just simply just then did in fact just seem to let out a little bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at the exact same time too, never the less.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have done as such a thing like that all of the sudden. That was when it was that I just then did in fact just seem to start to calm my self down, all at once. As I just then did in fact just seem to simply just calm my self down, at that.
My mother did in fact just seem to be staring at me with her eyes wide just now, at that. As it was clear that she did in fact not seem to be thinking any thing out side of the box on this one, luckily enough for me. As it was that she just then did in fact just seem to simply just speak right back on over towards me, never the less.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have heard her do as such a thing like that of course. I simply did in fact just seem to stare right in to her eyes my self, all at once. As I just then did in fact just seem to start to begin to listen as to just what ever it was that he did in fact feel like she even needed to say on over towards me, all at the exact same time too.
"Yes... Those steps are hard to make... I was scared to make those steps with your father..." She said to me, as it was that I did in fact just seem to have heard some pain in her voice just as it was that she had said as to just what it was that she had said to me. As it was that I was a little bit surprised as to just what it was that she had even said to me, at that.
As I knew that it was, that she never did in fact just seem to talk about my father at all, all at once. As it just then did in fact just seem to simply just make me gulp a little bit, all at the exact same time too. Just as soon as it was that I had in fact just seemed to have taken in as to just what it was that she had even just said to me.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have stood there and stared for just a little bit longer. I seemed to have felt some what lost as to just what it was that she was even getting at just now, none the less. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to blink my eyes a few times, all at the exact same time too, at that.
As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to start to go right on ahead, all at once, at that. And I did in fact just seem to do as such a thing like that. I just then did in fact just seem to start to all of the sudden begin to speak right back on over towards my mother.
As it was that I did in fact just seem to see her eyes wide. As it was that she did in fact just seem to continue to stare right back at me. As it was clear to me, that she was in fact beginning to start to listen as to just what ever it was that I felt like I needed to say just now, none the less.
"Didn't that not work out? Didn't my father get into gang and drug stuff, and get him self killed?" I said to her, all at the exact same time too. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to tilt my head on over towards her all of the sudden, at that. As it was that I was not all too sure as to just what it was that she was even getting at just now, all at the exact same time too.
Just as it was that I had in fact just seemed to have said as to just what it was that I had said. It was clear that it had in fact seemed to have hit a bit of a soft spot on my mom. As she just then did in fact just seem to start to wince all of the sudden. As she also then did in fact just seem to dip her head a little bit low to the ground, as well.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have noticed that it was in fact the case. I kind of felt a little bit bad as to just what it was that I had even said to her. Even if it was that she was in fact the one who had in fact brought it up in the very first place any ways, never the less.
As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to simply just get my mind and my focus off of all of that, all at once. As I too did in fact just seem to stare down at the table that was below me just now, never the less. As I just then did in fact all of the sudden, just as it was that I had in fact just seemed to have done as such a thing like that.
That was when it was that I just then did in fact just seem to start to all of the sudden go right on ahead. And I just then did in fact just seem to start to hear my mother speak back a little bit of a late response to me, at that. As it was that I just then did in fact lift my head up at first. As I just then did in fact just seem to start to begin to listen as to just what ever it was that my mother felt like she even needed to say on over towards me, all at the exact same time too, at that.
"Yes... But I still loved him... And I did try my best for him... He just... He couldn't fix him self in time... He really tried..." She said to me, all at the exact same time too. As it was that it was clear that she was in fact hurting as to just what it was that she was in fact saying to me, at that.
Based off of some of the stuff that it was that Xavier had told me about his brother and my father. I kind of felt like it might not actually be the case what so ever, none the less. But I did in fact not want to say other wise to my mother just now. As it was clear to me, that she had been in love with my father.
And it was clear to me that it did in fact just seem to hurt her as to just what it was that she was telling me just now, none the less. As I saw a few tears drop from her eyes, all at the exact same time too, at that. As it was that my mind just then did in fact just seem to roam off of all of those thoughts all of the sudden, at that.
As it was that I just then for what ever reason. Did in fact just seem to start to all of the sudden begin to think on some thing else, at that. As it was that I just then did in fact just seem to start to speak back to my mother all of the sudden, at that.
As it was that I seemed to not have an all too happy tone of voice as it was that I did in fact just seem to do as such a thing like that. As it was clear to me that she did in fact just seem to have her eyes on me. As it was clear that she was in fact just seeming to begin to listen as to just what ever it was that I felt like I had to say towards her, all at the exact same time too.
"So you're saying that I should stop... Because this won't work out in the end?" I said to her, as I was not all too sure as to just why it was that I had said as such a thing like that. When I knew that it was clear to me several times, that it was not at all what it was that my mother had been getting at.
As it was that she would have not have done all of this stuff for me, if it was that she did in fact not want for me to chase my dreams, all at the exact same time too. As it was that I knew that I was forever grateful for the fact that my mother was that way. As it was that I kind of instantly felt a little bit bad as to just what it was that I had said.
How ever, luckily enough for me. It did in fact just seem to be that it was. That my mother did in fact not seem to be taking it in the way that I was worried that she might have.
As it was that for what ever reason or another. She seemed to get a little bit of a chuckle out of it. As I just then did in fact just seem to see her wipe the tears from off of her eyes, all at the exact same time as well.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have realized that she had in fact just seemed to have done as such a thing like that. That was when it was that she just then did in fact just seem to go right on ahead. And she just then did in fact just seem to speak right back on over towards me all of the sudden, all at once.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have stood there and stared at her for just a few seconds more time. I just simply did in fact just seem to blink my eyes a few times, all at once. As I just then did in fact just seem to start to go right on ahead, all at the exact same time too, all at once. And I just then began to start to listen as to just what ever it was that she felt like she needed to say on over towards me once again, at that.
"No silly... I meant... If you have a dream, and you have some thing that you love... You need to chase it with the best of your heart... No matter what the end might look like..." She said to me, as it was that she once again did in fact just seem to be quite a bit hurt as to just what it was that she had in fact just said at the end of that, never the less.
As it was clear that she was in fact still talking about my father, all at the exact same time too, at that. As I simply did in fact just seem to shiver as to just what it was that she had said to me. As she seemed to almost be giving a speech like MLK Jr.
I almost wanted to drop a bit of a tear from my eyes, all at the exact same time too, at that. That was until I just then did in fact just seem to start to all of the sudden hear that it was. That the fire alarm that was in fact in the apartment, did in fact just seem to start to begin to go off, all at once.
My mother did in fact just seem to let out quite a bit of a loud groan, all at the exact same time too. Which I could not at all blame her for that being the case, none the less. As it seemed like the fire alarm always went off when my mother was cooking some thing delicious, all at the exact same time too.
I kind of just had a bit of a smile on my face just as soon as it was that I had realized that it was the case. As it felt good to get my mind off of the rest of those other thoughts, once again. As I just then did in fact just seem to speak up to my mother, all at the exact same time too.
As it was that I had in fact just seemed to have began to have realized as to the fact that it was in fact the case, all at the exact same time as well. I just then did in fact just seem to start to simply just see her stare at me with her eyes wide. As it was clear that she was in fact beginning to start to listen as to just what ever it was that I felt like I needed to say towards her just now, all at the exact same time as well.
"Well... I guess you better fix that..."