(Discontinued For Now)Holiday princes

to serve the crown part 1

Serving the crown will always come no matter what this place isn't homophobic by any means but they need someone to give them an heir

Someone beautiful worthy of thier love to hold in thier arms at night

to kiss them goodnight

To dance with them holding each other close

I can't help but wonder what if I was worthy of thier love

Of those magical love filled days and nights

The romance and dances filled with passion

But sadly that cannot happen in a few days they will Choose a bride who can give them an heir to the throne of Cathia

No matter how badly I wish it was ne that would be lucky enough to be chosen I will be packing as I cannot stand by and watch them love someone else my heart cannot take it

So I have made the decision to leave the place I gave always called home my
Adopted family has been here for many generations I was only a day old when they found me abandoned near the Cathia retrain tracks

I know I'm being a coward by leaving

But I cant watch them look at someone else with love filled eyes and lustful gazes and glances

I can't hear them one day say they are expecting a child I so desperately wish they were gay but they are not

I'm sorry for not introducing myself my name is kovu mathews servant to the princes of cathia

I am twenty two years old

I have worked here since I was very young you can get a job as young as twelve I did I wanted to serve them and my country as soon as possible

I have thought about leaving since thier grandparents passed away

They were the only ones who made me feel like family the king is busy without a queen since she passed away from a degenerative disease

The princes have never shown any interest in men only woman so I knew it was foolish to fall in love with them

But I fell in love with them anyway regardless of if they were gay or not even though I knew it would lead to heartbreak in the end

So as I pack my suitcases trucks duffle bags and backpacks I relive the memories and only feel heartbreak

I will be leaving in a week to my new home in Vermont I still want to live where it snows a lot

I have love snow my whole life since I was a baby it is a big part of me

Cathia is the third largest kingdom our neighbors are the kingdom of parleya my dear friend lives there

I have promised to visit her before I leave the kingdoms and head to the train station to take the train to Vermont

So I will be visiting her in a few days time for now though I am getting everything together for the princes ball in a few days

They want it to be huge and grand fit for royal princes I will leave the night before my friend will be picking me to take me to her home

I will stay there for a few days to spend time with her and have lots of fun then I will leave

We see each other on the weekends and on days I can take off early so we see each other often but we still miss each other

We met fir the first time at a festival as babies and our families would meet every chance they got after they also became friends

I put my things I have finished packing away and cover the things I haven't finished packing

Until I am ready to leave I will get my final pay check before leaving i never have to pay for anything we are taken care of here

Except when it comes to certain Things certain people and certain subjects

I have told them I am going on vacation the day after the ball two weeks in advance

So they won't suspect a thing by my disappearance I am going to leave a letter with the best explanation I can

I know they won't miss me they have plenty of servants and people wanting to work for the royal family

So they won't even notice my absence at all even if they do they will forget me very quickly it hurts to think about

But this is what needs to happen its for the best that I leave before my heart gets broken anymore it gets repeadtly broken with thier numerous relationships l

But every time they broke up I got hope that they could love me again or learn to at least now I know that won't happen I have accepted that

I pull myself out of my thoughts and pull myself together quickly hoping no one noticed anything changed or a look on my face thankfully no one did

I should expect it by now that's hiw it always us everyone stays busy and only  relaxes outside of the palace I get back to work making sure everything is perfect for thier early birthday party celebration

This is so they can focus on finding a future wife and mother for thier children a queen to rule alongside them to continue the royal line

I can understand that
I have always understood that

But it get hard they do treat us well even if they act like we are still lower then them a lot

We have a separate dining room fir staff because they don't want to see us while eating or be near us or have anyone else see us

So even if they are not homophobic or sexist they have other problems like thinking we don't deserve to eat in the same room as them like we are yo disgusting to look at while eating

We are ordered whenever thry come in unless we are speaking to them not to look at them or if we are helping them get ready for a celebration or event

I have just had enough of these things on top of the princes frequent daily or every other day man whore tendencies