Driven By my Ego and the fear that someone might hurt me I've come to a Point in my live where everything seems like an Illusion.
I cant realy Tell why.
It feels Like I've been playing a role of myself all These months.
I wasn't myself most of the Time, only anger and revenge Made me do all of this.
While I've achieved everything sexually...
I still haven't had anything.
If i Could speak to my youngerself i would say:
„Tuh es nicht sie kann dir all das was du dir erhoffst nicht geben!"
I mean...
I knew it
I was just blinded of my childish perspective of a relationship with her.
I liked the way we touched
Sometimes with, sometimes without „fingers„
I can't discribe my feelings...
Maybea i don't have none...
I would really Like to See how the realstionship would have been withoud my Ego and without her Unloyal ways end stressfull actions.
Maybea a diferent Story with a diferent ending.
Who Knows....
Nala no
Lafayette no
True love no
Nothing of these things will ever exist.
As i Said nothing really exisist in This world it's just an illusion.
Im not here to spread love, im just here to take actions an reveal myself as the one that Nobody knows about.
-Lafayette
