Please Love Me Again | Taejin ✓

8. Too Much To Ask?

As the night progressed, the friends extended their dinner to drinking soju while grilling more meat. They were all laughing- enthusiastic about each moment that they talk about and recall from their childhood. But these were all drunk chattering - as they have already consumed too much alcohol throughout the night.

"Oh my-- who could forget that time when Jungkook was caught jerking himself off under the table in the library?!!" Hobi burst into laughter as he said his story loudly. "He is the horniest gay everrr!!"

Jin clapped his hands while laughing hard, while Jungkook shook his head sloppily. "Please!! You were worse than I am!! At least I was jerking off myself when I was caught-- but you?!!.. You were caught jerking Yoongi's dick off!!!"

"Ahhh!! We're talking about that now, huh!!!" Hobi stood up and tried to walk towards Jungkook, but he's already tripping on his own feet. So Yoongi already collected him by lifting him up, he said, "Okay, that's it! Time for bed, honey. You're already wasted."

"Nooo!! I need to teach Jungkookieee a lesson!!!" Hobi shouted.

Taehyung and Jin were laughing while watching Jungkook and Hobi make faces to annoy each other, just like kids do.

"Wow-- Hobi is still the loud mouth that he was!" Jungkook said, standing up and intending to follow the couple inside to turn in to bed too.

"And you are still the jerk that you were!" Taehyung said while shaking his head. But Jungkook didn't seem to hear him because he just walked straight inside their rest house.

Out of them five, only Jin and Taehyung were consciously sober. Jin does not really drink a lot as his alcohol tolerance is very low. He hates severe hangovers, so he learned to just try and avoid it. Whilst with Taehyung- knowing Jin is like this, he tried to limit his alcohol intake so he can look after Jin, just in case the latter got too drunk.

Jin let out a sigh and smiled, "Ahh.. that was fun!" He stood up and gathered the empty bottles on the table. "You can go inside and rest too, Tae. I can clean up here."

But Taehyung took the big tray and placed all the used plates and utensils in there. "I'm good, you should be the one to get inside, Jin. It's getting colder, you might catch a cold. Don't go straight to bed, okay? Wash your face and change into clean and dry clothes."

Jin smiled and stared at Taehyung for a while, he thought he was just the same old Tae - caring and protective of him. It was something that Jin took as being too possessive and controlling at some point when they were younger.

Jin's smile slowly turned into a frown. He softly said, "I was too selfish to think that you- being the natural caring guy, was someone who just wanted to dictate me with every single thing. How did I ever forget that you just wanted what's best for me?! That you just wanted everything your way coz you want to see me well taken care of and just give me the best that you can.."

Taehyung stopped what he's doing when he heard what Jin said. He walked closer to Jin by the end of the table and stared at his eyes.

"Jin.. everything could've been cleared if you only told me that you felt that way. Then I could've just changed my ways. You know I was willing to do anything to make you happy. Then maybe-- maybe we didn't need to break up.

Honestly, I still don't understand why you had to leave me. I even came to a point where I questioned your love for me. You said you love only me, but then it was so easy for you to walk away from me a-and throw e-everything we h-had."

Taehyung stopped as he couldn't hold himself anymore from crying . His tears just streamed down his face, and all the hurt he felt fifteen years ago just came back instantly.

Jin's eyes welled up with tears too while he listened to Taehyung. But he tried to breathe in deeply so he could speak clearly even with a trembling voice, "I-is that r-really what you thought-- that I threw e-everything we had?? I just wanted to find m-myself, a better version of m-me..

I never m-meant to hurt you, T-tae. But I know I d-did. Coz I w-was foolish, and I have admitted it already - I was selfish! I've a-always thought you will just be there to wait for m-me. That you'll be willing to wait for me a-and give me the time I needed.

But when you left for the US, it hit me-- you got tired of m-me. And that you can go on w-without me. I followed you to the a-airport, Tae-- I asked my dad to drive me and take me to y-you.."

"Y-you did??"

Jin nodded and sobbed harder, "Y-yes. But I didn't make it. So I told mum to help me send y-you letters. I begged for you to come b-back thru my letters. I asked you to c-come back, coz I was so a-afraid you'll forget about us when you live so far away. But you didn't-- you did not come b-back. I told myself I will wait no matter what.. and now-- now you're here, a-already getting m-married to someone e-else."

Jin couldn't control his loud cries anymore, his face streamed down with rivers of tears, "You-- you're getting m-married and I can't do anything about it a-anymore. I regret everything Tae.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry!!"

Taehyung just burst into more tears seeing Jin breaking down in front of him. He quickly pulled Jin for an embrace, he let him cry against his chest while he brushed his hair and caressed his back with so much eagerness.

"I'm sorry, Jin-- I'm so sorry that I wasn't able to read those letters. Had I read just one of them, e-even just one-- with you asking me to come back, I would've hurriedly made my way back to y-you, Jin. I'm so sorry, baby.. I'm sorry I have kept you waiting--"

They both just cried in each other's arms, letting out all the pain from their chests. After some time, when both of their cries died down a bit, Jin pulled back from Taehyung's chest to stare at his face.

Taehyung caressed Jin's face with his thumbs. Then Jin started to speak in a whisper, "Tae.. I-- I know this must be too much to ask from you.."

Jin's tears started to flow down his cheeks again, he was already having a hard time breathing because of too much crying, but he forced himself to speak out the words he's been longing to ask,

"Tae-- can you.. c-can you p-please love me a-again?!" As soon as Jin got those words out, he let his eyes well up with tears again. Then he started begging, "P-please, Tae?! P-please love m-me a-again. P-please--"

Taehyung bit his bottom lip, his cries were getting louder too at hearing Jin pleading at him nonstop.

"Sshhh-- sshhh.." Taehyung hushed Jin to calm him down from too much crying. He pulled him again for a hug - Jin gripped onto Taehyung's chest tight while he cried. When Taehyung felt that Jin's grip was loosening, he thought he must've already calmed down.

So Taehyung faced Jin again, he cupped his cheeks and then started to speak, "I don't think there's a need for that, Jin.."

"W-what do you m-mean?!" Jin asked, his chest was beating too fast, afraid to hear Taehyung reject him this time.

"I-- I don't need to love you again.. Because I never stopped loving you.. I've always loved you, Jin."

Jin cried even more upon hearing Taehyung's response. Then his eyes widened when Taehyung suddenly captured his lips into his.

It was that feeling that Jin used to feel when they were younger - relieved, at ease.. as if all his worries would just fly away whenever he feels Taehyung's lips are on his.

So then Jin slowly closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around Taehyung's waist - he started to answer the kisses of the man he loves, deeper and with more passion. He waited and dreamed for this moment to come - he almost thought it's impossible to happen.

But here he is-- giving his all to a kiss he thought he won't ever experience again.

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