Song Stories

Broken

Song: Train Wreak by James Arthur

TW!: Mentions of of death attempted suicide, abuse, shit relationship, swearing, manipulation, self harm! 

  5 Years Ago

  "Jason! Come back!" I yelled. I ran to where he was and I saw he stopped.

"Found ya!" I said in victory.

"Jackie? C-can I ask you something?" He said. I tilted my head in confusion.

"Jackie? Will you be my girlfriend?" 

"Yes! Of Course!"

2 years ago

He lied. He after that said it would be the best thing ever and we would be happy. HE FUCKING LIED! 

Laying in the silence, waiting for sirens. Signs, any signs I'm alive still.

But of course, me the naive idiot I am, always forgave him... looking back now I a the stupidest person ever. I hit myself in the head for being this stupid. I look at him sleeping. 

'Finally.' I think to myself. I run into the bathroom locking the door. I grabbed one of his razor blades and pull my sleeves up. I put it to my skin. 

'I've had enough up of this pain. I'm done...' I thought. I press hard on the blade and it sunk into my skin. I felt the blood dripping of my wrist and the small sound it made when it contacted the floor. I smiled a faint smile before moving the blade. It was deep and the cut was gushing blood as it slit my wrist. 

  Tears ran down my face as the cut grew larger and larger. 

[POV Switch] 

 I woke up to crying in the bathroom. I was annoyed by her already and now she's crying for no fucking reason?

"Honey is everything ok?" I asked. Sounding nice. 

"F-fuck off!" I heard her yell. 

"that's it!" I yelled trying to break down the door. Little did I know someone was watching. 

[POV Switch] 

  I don't wanna lose it but I'm not getting through this...

Present time

   'I let that happen.' I touched the window. 

"You can't change the past Jackie..." He said. 

"Yea yea, I know..." I said waiting for the door being busted down. I sigh hearing it and we go back. 

"Live a good life ok Jackie?" She said. I nodded. 

"You too." I said walking over to my room. 

"Jackie!" Someone said. I look over and see Raylin. 

"Hello dear." I said going over to her and engulfing her in a hug. 

"What's up with you?" She chuckled. 

"Can I not give my girlfriend a hug?" I asked. She shrugged and accepted the hug.

"Your thinking of him aren't you?" Raylin asked. I nodded my head. 

Hey, should I pray, should I pray yea. To myself? to a god? To a savior who can

"Well stop. He's gone now. No need to be thinking of him." She said. I chuckle and kiss the top of her head.

"Guess your right." I said. I gave her a quick squeeze before letting go. I left my bedroom and went outside for a walk. I was walking when I hear footsteps behind me. I just kept walking until I noticed they were following me. I wiped around and he was there.