Chapter Seven.
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me, too
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand
And said my place was ready
In Heaven far above
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love
But as I turned to walk away
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought
I didn't want to die
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We left Miami on Thursday at nine o'clock at night, so we managed to get to Manhattan yesterday around three in the early afternoon, right on time for the funeral.
Today everyone decided the best would be to move on, to not think of yesterday and the pain we felt. And that's what we did, none of us said a single word about the funeral or the accident. It's not like we will forget what happened or about Carly, but we can't mourn forever.
I know it's only been a couple of days, but we have to start somewhere, right? And it's the best we could do for Jade and Aiden. They can't spend the rest of their life crying because they lost their mother, they're still kids and they have the right to enjoy their childhood and to have nice memories of it.
We were all sitting in the living room watching a movie called Jack and Jill. I thought it would be better if we saw a funny film rather than a sad one, and everyone loved the idea. The kids were laughing uncontrollably, even Roxy and her dad did, which is something I never thought I'd see anytime soon.
The only person who wasn't ready to move on yet was my mother. She rarely came out of the room, only if she needed to go to the bathroom or to drink some water. She barely eats and I've only seen hear shower once since we got here yesterday. I know it's harder for her because I know how close she was with her sister and everything they went through together, that's why I don't bother her. I know when she's ready she will come out of that room to sit with her family.
My phone started ringing in my hands. I stood up and apologized in front of everyone before entering the kitchen to have more privacy. I was going to miss the call so to avoid that, I answered very quickly, didn't even have the time to see who was calling.
