Wingless Crow (Suicidal Hinata)

Changes?

I don't remember what really happened or when I blacked out. The thing is, I was sure that I was on the rooftop and jumped. I remember it taking me a long time because of how I feel and how much I was crying but now, now I felt dead inside.

Bokuto: Hinata!

Me: Bokuto?

That voice surprised me. I never thought that I would hear him again. Why was he even here? It was a short question in my mind but soon I stopped thinking about it more.

Bokuto: I am here now...

Me: I can see that...

Bokuto: I came to get you our little bird.

Me: Huh?

What he just said didn't make sense to me at all. Why would he come because of me and why would he get me at all. In the back of my mind, I had memories of him saying wait for me or something along the line. It was from the training camp, the last day when we had to part.... still did this make any sense now?

Bokuto: It took a bit but we got a scholarship for you. You are an owl now.

Me: HUH?!

Now I was laying there on a bed and the antiseptic smell came towards me. This was the infirmary from what I could tell. Thinking about what happened, I came to the conclusion that I must have blacked out before I succeeded. Still this didn't even halway explained why Bokuto was here.

Bokuto: You are part of our team now...

His voice was shaking but he was trying to smile desperate how he felt. I could tell how much it was faked. It was just soo plainly obvious.

Me: Stop it...

It made me uncomfortable looking at him so I looked at everything but not his eyes. 

Bokuto: Don't worry, eveyerthing will get better.

Me: How...

How does he think things will change?

HOW?!

I don't have a home anymore.

I don't have a place to stay!

I am just bothering everyone!

Bokuto: Hey... If you... Would you let me take you home with me?

Me: Home?

Bokuto: Yeah! I live alone since my parents are on business trips nearly all the time.

Me: Why would you want me tho?

Bokuto: Because you are now one of my birds.

Me: But you don't know me... or want me...

Of course the last part came out as a whisper but it was enough for this man to tear up. He really was crying and I think at this point it was more than obvious how broken I was. Nothing could fix me at all.

Bokuto: A chance. 

Me: Pardon?

Bokuto: All I am asking is a second chance.... I know you don't want to anymore but can you endure a bit more. Just a bit?

Me: ....

He had me more than just speechless. No one ever asked me for a second chance and the way he was looking at me there was really not a way I could say no. After all the troubles he went through just to get me to his school, I couldn't bring myself up to say no at all. It may just make me suffer more but I didn't wanted to be more bothersome than I already was.

Me: Okay...

Bokuto: You won't regret this!

That was something which was for the future to tell but at least I now had a place to stay again. While I was smiling ever so slightly, Bokuto started beaming at me. It didn't felt bad but I still didn't really feel a thing. However all of the sudden, my stomach started to rumble and it made that owl laugh soo hard.

Maybe the timing was a bit funny but what it surely changed the mood in the room soo much. I mean up until now I could have said that it was such a depressing vibe inside here. It was pressuring and the air felt just toxic. I was just glad he didn't asked me why I did it. I mean I am pretty sure I was about to do it. 

Coach: Good to see that you still have a great hunger.

I really didn't know when he came or if he was in here the whole time but their coach was standing there and he looked pleased for some reasons. He also had some papers in his hand and was waving it at me.

Coach: You are officially a student of Fukurodani now.