𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄 - p. anselmo

chapter 5 - skeptical at lust

1991
Denali

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With an abrupt knock on the door Phil and I shot up. My head was killing me and my stomach was in knots. Slowly looking to my side, Phil and I looked at each other worried. I was half naked and so was he.

"W-we didn't fuck did we?" He asked nervously.

"No, i don't think so

"What is i don't think so supposed to mean?!"

"I don't think so!" I yelled getting frustrated with him and myself.

From what I remember I was out of it and there was a pool and that was it. I had no ideas how I got in Phil's room or what happened. All I knew, is that we had to leave and get back on the bus today which meant I'd have to leave Phil's room, which also meant a 50/50 chance of being caught.

"Whatever! That's not the problem anyways, the problem is getting you out of here!" He yelled, checking the nightstands clock for the time.

"It's only 6AM, we've got time if we hurry" he said. I got out of bed and put my boxers back on.

"I'll go check the door before you go out" he said. I waited for him to check who was there and luckily it was only Dime, asking if Phil had extra Aspirin.

"No man Sorry i don't...what time do we leave?"

"8:00" he said before Phil shut the door.

"You gotta get outta here before the rest wake up okay?" Phil said rushing me.

I kept remembering little things last light that I wouldn't want to remember. One of them being what Jeff did to me. I got quiet and looked at the floor.

"What's wrong Denny?" Phil asked looking at me worried.

"Jeff...what he did last night...that was wrong right?" I asked and Phil sighed.

"Yes"

"I feel so embarrassed..." i said walking to the door and grabbing the handle.

"Listen Denny, don't ever fee embarrassed, that isn't your fault"

"I can't drink again, i can't risk it." Before anything else's was said, I left the room.

We all gathered in the lobby with some of our thing, the Roadies had the rest in the bus already. Luckily I left Phil's room without being caught, although I was seen by some old man.

"You know, you guys are banned from this hotel right?" John said scolding us all.

"Really?! Cool!" Darrell said smiling.

"This isn't "cool" you know what this is?!" John asked with his arms folded. Phil stood next to me trying not to laugh as i mocked Johns movements.

"What is it?" Vinnie said, he looked half dead himself.

"This is the last time i pay for any expensive place, you'll have to flash Judas Priest manager your puppy dog eyes now" i rolled my eyes. Not only did I partake in this, but I helped trash the place and get shit faced.

We all left the lobby before the owners kicked us out themselves, the look on there faces when we left looked sad. The pool was filled with garbage and pieces of an old Tv, i don't think i would have been happy either.

I sat on the couch in the lounge of the bus with all the guys. Me and Phil sat next to each other this time, as we all watched a stupid horror movie that had little to none scary features at all.

"Denny?" Phil caught my attention.

"Hm?" I asked, not looking into his eyes.

"What happened with you and Jeff wasn't your fault...he was drunk. Next time I see him I'll make sure to put up a good fight" Phil said. So was it supposed to be left like that? Was everything always a fight?

"Don't bother okay? Please i mean it"

"But-"

"Please Phil?" I asked, his brown eyes looked disappointed.

Phil just shut up. He didn't say much after that and neither did I. As much as I tried not to fall asleep, I did and it wasn't where I was expecting.

Phil's Pov

Her head laid on my shoulder gently, and soon enough the sound of her light breathing was heard. The other guys had left earlier so it was just me and Denny. When she sleeps she tends to shift a lot, but I didn't expect her to get right comfortable with me. Her body shifted closer to mine making just a bit nervous for the reason that the guys could walk in any minute.

I didn't want to move her so I just let those thoughts go. Who cares?

The world.

I sighed and smiled down at her. My hand moved to her head and her face. I traced her face her jawline gently, totally admiring her and her beauty and letting my hands run up into her shaggy blonde hair. Her hair was really badass, being longer but also shorter at the top of her head. Some strands even had braids in them like mine.

I grabbed a strand and gently braided it for her. I wasn't the best, but it still looked good anyways.

As I played with her hair I grew tired myself, closing my eyes and falling asleep.