Hello. My name is Daisy. I'm a senior in high school. Ever since the 5th grade I've struggled with depression. In middle school things escalated, and I got involved in self-harm and suicidal thoughts. These thoughts and actions controlled my life, like a dark cloud over me, a monster inside me. They dictated how I felt, everyday was a struggle, it was hard. I've been to therapy and have gotten counseling, they've helped, but the majority of me getting better is me actually wanting to get better. Despite my rough past, and sometimes reoccurrences of depressive moods, I am proud to say I am close to 6 months clean, and I'm overjoyed. Another problem that I've struggled with is insecurity and anxiety. You see, I'm not good in social situations, especially being over weight, it's hard to even step out of the door in the morning. My parents were never there for me. I am of a wealthy background, both of my parents owning companies, I was born "rich". You would think that, driving a Range Rover, or having the latest Louis Vuitton bag would make for happiness and a perfect life. You're wrong. It doesn't. Money does not buy happiness. How I crave sometimes to be shown affection from parents who are never home, or have a sincere 'good morning' or 'I love you'. Money messes with your head. I am eternally and extremely grateful for everything I have, but being honest, I don't want it, I don't want this life. One of my refuges is music. I believe music has a capability to change your mind, and feel a certain way. That's why I love it. One of my favorite bands has been imagine dragons. I've been there since day 1. I have all their records, and I feel like I can relate to the lead singer, Dan Reynolds who also goes through the anxiety and depression. Something about him, his presence, his piercing deep blue eyes, I just connected with him. Yes I knew he is married, and yes I know he has a daughter, and I'm happy that he's happy. There is a concert coming up in Dallas, Texas that'd I'd love to go to.
*calls mom*
Mom: hey sweetie! What's up, could it be quick, I'm in the middle of a meeting...
Me: hey. Yeah, um. There's this concert.. Imagine dragons, one of my favorite bands, coming this July, I was wondering if ...
Mom: yeah Hun! Whatever you want! You know I'll get you VIP, you could rent a nice hotel and..
Me: Mom! No! It's ok I just want tickets, no big deal.
Mom: Come on! You'll have more fun! Ill get someone to plan everything ok? I'll talk to you later bye!
*hangs up*
Me: bye..
I get off the phone and go into my large empty room... Like my soul... And do the normal bedtime routine.. Wash face, brush teeth, etc. I the. Get in bed and check my phone for messages. I have several from my friends but don't feel like replying. I just lay down and try to fall asleep.
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Hey loves, I really don't know where this is going, like I said, this is coming from a dream. Some stuff is made up, but I do actually suffer from depression and self harm and anxiety. I'm getting better.I just hope this story comes out alright. Feedback and questions are appreciated. Oh by the way keeping my name anonymous out of personal preference. Using a different one for story. Love u.
-Birdyy
"The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts; therefore guard accordingly" -Marcus Aurelius
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Teen FictionDan Reynolds love story. This is just completely based off a dream I had , personal background, and other stuff. Mostly fiction. Hope you like it. Love u my fellow FireBreathers(:
