I begin with a small note, love is always around us it is intangible, intrusive and almost always inexplainable. Love who you want, there's no promise they will love you back.
Lying on my bed I close my eyes and think of you, how hot your breath was that night, the strong hold of your arms and I smile. Revisiting that dream is the only thing that keeps me sane at the moment, I am alone, the smile fades. Then I remember you're not mine anymore, in a way you never were I guess I'm happy I got to have you for once if only for a short while. The alarm goes off "crap I'm late" I thought to myself as I reluctantly drag myself out of bed ready for another day of faking being happy and listening to other people's drama. As I walk out the door I hear the familiar "Yo bitch" the otherwise formal greeting of my friend lily as she adjusts the tops of her 'unorthodox' shoes
"Sup my hoe" I reply, my head still spinning from my total zone-out this morning. I shake my head and get ready for the long walk to the hell hole or in human speak, school. Walking along I kinda zone out again as to what lily is gossiping on about and reflect on my dreams this past week they have all contained "him" the babe of all boys the cutest boy I have ever seen I swear to god if he was president of the United States he would be baberaham Lincoln. Shane Glass, god that boy could make my heart stop just by looking at me. When around him I feel safe but scared at the same time, scared I'm going to say the wrong thing, scared I'm going to screw up like I always have in the past. That's me Marceline Serena Dawson I am 16 years of age and to this point I have had 5 unsuccessful relationships and counting (maybe I should buy a cat?) I am currently completely crushing on a guy who's way out of my league and barely knows I exist. So anyway back to my present day I won't bore you with my life's story just yet.
Approaching the school gates I get pinged for my shoes (again) I get yelled at by the bitchy prefect (again) but for once I don't get detention (odd?) ugh I just realised I have homework due today which I haven't done as always. Today seems pretty normal I guess when ohhh shit ohhh shit ohhh shit! Shane walks down the corridor (let me just casually hide my face) damn that boys smile and damn damn damn! He has some leggy blonde with half a brain cell on his arm obviously she wears a push up bra and for gods sake her skirt is halfway up to her junk! But I guess I kinda wish I looked like that I'm all curves whereas shes all abs and angles. I guess I'm lucky that I don't look like some others I hope, I'm not too repulsive or maybe I should just give up on ever finding a guy I should really buy a cat gotta get started being alone sometime right?
