Leviticus: Return back home

Ch.9: Art museum

《LEVI'S POV》

Jay opened the door to his and Alex's room. "So, I took the liberty of already asking Alex just now and he said he's fine with switching rooms with you."
Levi entered the room first. "That's great. I missed sleeping in one room together."

Jay closed the door behind him. "I know, me too. It's kind of crazy how quickly I got accustomed to having you around."

Levi smiled. "I know. And Dave, I miss him so much too. I'm sure he understands why I haven't reached out, but still it feels awful to be forced to abandon him for a second time like this again."

They sat down on Jay's bed. Neither of them said anything for a while. Jay sighed and suddenly wrapped his arms around his boyfriend. He buried his face in Levi's curls.

"Fuck." He mumbled.
"The idea that I have to let go of you again and pretend I barely know you in 4 days kills me."

Levi leaned against him, putting his arms around Jay's waist and holding onto him tightly.
"This is so fucked up." Was all he could say.

There were no other words that could really explain how he felt about this. It was all just so unfair. So they just sat there, holding each other, for as long as they could.

After some time had passed Jay slowly let go of him. He distanced himself from Levi, so he could look at his face.
"Minnie, can't we figure out a way to still see each other? We could meet on our balconies each night and talk for a while. I know it's risky, but we can try. I really can't bare to not see you for two more years."

Levi didn't say anything for a while. Instead,  he caressed Jay's cheek with his hand, trying to imprint the feeling of Jay's face in his hand on his brain.
"I can't." He softly whispered.

Jay frowned. "Why not?"
Levi sighed. "I'm sorry, it's just too risky. I really hate all of this too, but this is my life now. If my dad ever catches us... I don't even know what he will do. "

Jay shrugged. "But if he kicks you out again, you can go back to Dave."
Levi thought about this for a moment, but then sternly shook his head. "No. I can't keep relying on him. I'm really grateful for these past few weeks, but I can't keep depending on him."

"I see." Jay pulled Levi closer and Levi hid his face in Jay's shoulder again. He drew circles on Jay's back and moved his head a bit, so he could listen to his boyfriend's heartbeat.
"Don't worry." He mumbled. "As soon as I'm able, I'll move out. And then we'll be able to live together."

"Hmm." Jay responded. "Do you want to live in the city then?"
"I think I want to live in a city at first. I want us to get an apartment at the top floor of a big building, so we'll have a view over the entire city. Preferably close to the sea, so we can go to the beach all the time."

Jay smiled. "And then?"
"And then what?"
"You said at first. Where do you wanna live after that?"
Oh, of course. "Well, once we're ready to start a family I'd like to move to a house with a big garden, with grass and lots of trees to build tree houses in."

Levi watched Jay think about everything for a second. "Sure. But we need to have a swimming pool."
Levi nodded. They needed a swimming pool, that was obvious.
"So, kids. How many do you want?"
"Oh my gosh, are we having the kids talk? This is so exciting"

Jay started laughing. "Well, I think it's good to know. So I'm guessing you want a lot, since you're from a big family yourself. Although I'm hoping you don't want twelve, because that would be a bit of a deal-breaker for me."

"I got kicked out of my home for you and you still have deal-breakers for me?"
Jay looked a bit startled. "I... didn't think you'd want twelve kids?"
Levi laughed at him. "I don't. I want four."