The Time, I Got Isekaied As An Angel

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 I wouldn't ever expect that will die this way. I had just begun truly using my youth, and started blooming... And then I was hit by a car. I have no idea what the guy driving had in mind when he drove with all speed on the passing.

And then...
There was a feeling of floating in complete darkness. I don't know how much it lasted.
And then I suddenly began to form. A light that was bright and warm, was coming from everywhere. My whole body started to... Take form. I didn't know what was going on... Then a song appeared. No, many of them. But that weren't the songs I listened to all the time. I... I just couldn't describe them. It was a melody of souls. I could sense it, not hear it. They were all waiting for something to happen.

After some time, the soothing light flowed away, and I opened my eyes. The landscape seemed familiar... High, shining spires and giant sculptures shimmer in the sunlight. Then, I looked at my hands... They were small. And black. No, not just dark color. They were pitch black, to the point I barely could recognize where my nails are. I also noticed very long hair again falling on my shoulders. The color was still the same. The color of dark chocolate, as my mother liked to call it. All of my memories at this point struck back with all their might. No. No. No, no. Please. Don't tell me... I rapidly moved my head up and looked around. I was surrounded by... Angels. I've already heard their resonances. All of them were welcoming me into their world. The world I shouldn't ever be born in. I got up on my feet, taking a few steps back. I haven't wanted this! I still had a whole life to live. I had a family I loved! I felt the tears gathering in my eyes and falling down my cheeks.

One of the female angels stepped forward and visibly tried to calm me down. I tried to stop the tears, but it wasn't easy. - S-sorry... I- I just... - I mumbled, constantly wiping my cheeks with a sleeve of the plain, white, hooded robe I was dressed in. After a while, I realized who is in front of me. Lady Auriel herself. She was... Way taller than I expected. Or maybe I was just so small. - All right, dear. What is your name? - She asked kindly, similar to the way my mother did... This time I managed to hold up the tears in my eyes. Name. Name. What is my new name? Tell her my real name? Or... I was... I had a new name that just appeared in my head, almost burning.
- My name... My name is Gabriel, I- I think.

I just burst into tears in front of Auriel herself. Well, the first failure at the beginning of my unwanted life as a soldier in Eternal Conflict. Just... Hope I will not die as soon. One angel of hope led me to the area where notelings during their training lived. I just sat down on the chair, looking around. Pretty comfy place. But... Eh. They will look at me more carefully than the others. Since I noticed a few differences between me and the angels, I have seen so far. I got closer to the circular, medium-sized mirror hanging on a wall. I looked at my face in reflection... It was all pitch black, like the rest of my new body. And more interesting... Or not, I looked like a small child with long, brown hair, falling almost to my knees. The color was still the same as I used to have as a human. I gently spread my wings, appearing on the back. They were clearly in bird-like shape, shining in a mint color. A hummingbird – appeared in my mind. I used to be called like this by some of my friends. With the memories of friends, the sadness and feeling of emptiness were back. I lost them. I lost my life, the life I hoped to be long and full of successes. Usually, the isekai protagonists had a boring lonely life and had nothing to lose. I lost so much. My life wasn't boring. I had friends and a family. Even though I was reincarnated in the race was interested in most. Still not any cheer-up. Because angels were clearly screwed up in some points. What if I will have to fight against demons in pointless conflict? I'll die immediately! I hadn't ever nearly near good physical condition... And I always had a heart too soft to deny someone's request, so what about killing another living thing? This isn't a place I wanted to live in. But it seems that I have no other choice. I must try to do this best as I can. I have to make some rules to maximalize my chance of surviving. Never tell anybody I was a mortal, and... Let Fate be its way. My goal should be only surviving. I looked in the mirror once again. On this day, I have to live a new life. I stopped being me. Now I was Gabriel. This name just was assigned to me, or rather, the angel which should be born when I appeared... My soul might somehow fuse with them.
I looked over my room again. It was... Really well made. The walls were made of some white stone, like the... wide... Bench in space between desk and wall. I assume it's a bed because a blanket and pillow were lying on it. But... The desk deserved the most attention. It was simple but elegant. It was made of wood or something really similar to it. So they must have forests here. I can't imagine angels stealing trees from Sanctuary. And neither imagined Inarius inventing even plants from scratch. Speaking of the desk itself, it looked more like a bureau than a classical desk. It had many smaller and bigger drawers and two lockers on the side. Curious, I started to open them. Inside the first one, I found two towels, a comb, and a few stripes of fabric, probably hair ribbons. In the second locker was a small bag. I suppose made for carrying all the necessary things. Not bad. It seems they were thinking forward in making notelings' quarters. In the drawers were many writing tools, even wax sealing things. Fortunately, I could write with a fountain pen, so the quill might be easier to use. The room was equipped as a small flat, even. They probably were thinking of teaching little angels how to be independent. I sat on my bed-thing and looked out from the small window. The view of Silver City was amazing... Then, somehow my thoughts went to my future in this world. Maybe make some new friends? Or... Later, much later... A lover? But for now... I suppose I have to come again through childhood, then my development will start again. For now, I was a teen stuck in a child's body. It seems that a long journey is awaiting me.