Sex Therapist - BTS KTH

Chapter Eight

Dr Kim cleared his throat slightly standing properly and sitting back in his seat. I let go of a breathe I didn't realise I was holding in. My legs still pinned to one another, waiting for my heart to calm back down. But I knew that scene would play over and over in my head, for a very long time. "Is there anything else I should know?" He asked, pulling his notebook back onto his lap a pen in hand. "Well sadly this will be my last session. I had to move out to my own place and I don't have a steady enough income to afford these sessions any longer" I sighed out and looked at him sadly, I would really miss this all, the way he makes me feel comfortable and seen. I feel wanted and not like a burden at all. I know I pay him to make me feel that way, but I really do appreciate the feeling. He looked at me sadly, "really? The last session?" He asked writing it down, I nodded. "My new apartment needs to be decorated and paid for, and I don't think I can afford to spend more money than I really have too" I sigh again, back to messing with my hands, "but I am going out on the town tonight with my girl friends, one last night until I have a better income, hopefully a little fun will help me feel somewhat better" I say smiling a little hoping to cheer him up with my statement somehow. "Planning on taking anyone home?" He asks looking at me in my eyes again, I shiver a small amount, "I'm not sure, Haneul was all I knew for a very long time, I may have a little dance with someone or a kiss but I think that's all for now" he nods writing some notes. I wonder why he keeps writing notes if I'm not going to continue to come back?

The session ended, I stood grabbing my bag and looking towards Dr Kim, "thank you for everything, I really appreciate it, I'm sad it has to end so early, but it's taught me a lot about myself" I smile, bowing a little towards him, I turn to leave the room and hear footsteps coming from behind me, a hand on the door handle in front of me. "Ari, I have really enjoyed my time with you, these sessions have been enjoyable, watching you get more comfortable and open minded about yourself, it's an experience to see, I really hope to see you again soon, we will miss you around here" I look up to his face and smile again, he opens the door for me and waves me goodbye as I walk down the hallway towards the exit. I stop at the desk and towards Mrs Jun, talking to her and letting her know how this was my last session, she looked sad and stood to hug me. "I will miss seeing your face weekly" she said into my ear pulling away and smiling at me, I smiled at her before taking my leave.

Nearly time to head out clubbing with the girls and I took one final look in the mirror. A tight black dress that hugged my figure, it was a little short and showed cleavage, I hadn't worn this dress in a very long time, and I liked how it fit and what it did to my confidence, leaning in I checked my makeup and hair making sure it all looked good and nothing was smudged. I grabbed my bag and shoes getting into my cab and texting the group chat to let them know I will be there soon and to order me a shot. I paid the cab and stood outside the club, smiling. I could hear the music from inside the building playing so loudly it felt like the building was going to start shaking, the groups of people outside talking and laughing, the smell of alcohol flowing through the air. I'd miss these little night outs, but I have to put other responsibilities first. I smiled walking to the bouncers showing my ID and walking straight to the bar spotting the girls.

The one shot I asked for turned into 4 and 2 drinks. Laughing on the dance floor I started to dance everything away, all the feelings and thoughts. Just everything. Nothing mattered right now apart from me having fun with my friends and enjoying myself, no one to stop me or make me feel upset. I looked around slightly trying to get a good look at the people in the club, it's dark and harder to see but even then no one particularly caught my eye. Nari and me began to dance on one another, laughing. I could feel eyes burning into me, I looked around and couldn't see anyone looking, I shrugged it off and carried on dancing with Nari. After a while she left for the bar and I carried on dancing by myself the other girls migrating into the crowd and dancing with strange men and women, I loved when they got to enjoy themselves, you can see the enjoyment in there faces from miles away.

I felt a hand slink around my waist slightly and I turned expecting to see Nari stood behind me with drinks but there stood a man I don't recognise. I moved quickly turning fully to face time, "your beautiful how come your alone?" He asked moving a little closer to me, "I'm not alone my friends at the bar" I tried to be polite and smile at him, but it's like my words hadn't even touched his ears he stood even closer so I took another step away, "listen I'm not interested sorry" I said quite loudly hoping he would understand to just leave and let me carry on my dancing till Nari gets back. "Oh come on! One dance won't hurt! Your beautiful and there are some weird men in here, if they see you with me they may leave you alone" he smiled I stared at him a little dumbfounded, did he not realise he was the weird man? "I said no" I crossed my arms and frowned at him, "fucking tease" he shouted walking away, I dropped my arms and sighed, Nari rushing over with alcohol in her hands, "what was that?" She asked confused, I just shrugged and took a drink from her before chugging it and carrying on the dancing.