I can't do it anymore, theres no point. Im a disappointment to my friends, my family, im a disappoint to everyone. I just want to disappear. Everything I do always end up wrong. Why can't I be useful for once. Sometimes I wish I wasn't even born, people probably only care for me because they feel bad. They probably never even liked me to begin with. I get told im annoying and I know, but I can't do anything. I want to be someone else, all I am is a burden.hell with this pirate king stuff that would take way to long for someone to care about me.
Every time I do something reckless I end up getting "saved" anyway. Just let go of me.
Everyday, all day, every night, all night, someone saves me.
They know, they all know im tired. I put a smile on my face and no-one questions a thing , they think im in my own little fairytale world.
However one person was different, its like they could read me like an open book.
They always asked me what's wrong but id own want to put my problems on them, after all im their captain so I should stop worrying and care for my crew.
I try, i try my hardest but I never succeed. Im the reason my brother died, why they reason my crew went through so much pain, I just can't handle it anymore.
I sit at the end of the sunny, I look around and see nobody and can only hear the sound of the strong waves tonight. This would be my final attempt, I don't want to cause pain to myself so I rather just disappear completely with the ocean
I hear rustling coming from zoros lookout area and jump into the oceans don't want him to know
The moment I jump into the water I start instantly sinking, how many times I failed? At this point it doesn't matter. My crew can finally be at peace now.
I thought this was my last. I heard a splash in the water and heard something mumbling, I open my eyes but they're blurry.
Zoros hand was reaching out for me
Its always him, he was the only one who ever asked about me, sometimes I wish I nevr eat someone as kind and loyal like him
No, this is my last time.
Im running out of air, zoro pulls onto me and I push away ending up falling deeper into the abyss
Eventually zoros out of my sight, I might aswell be dead already as I've been in the water for a while.
My eyes close for the final time.
