So before you start wondering,
I am writing this for me
not for you.
I am letting myself know,
all the things that I've been keeping
for ... from myself.
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On your first birthday
with me in your life,
I was the first one to wish you
happy birthday.
On your last birthday
with me in your life,
I will be the last one wishing you
a happy birthday.
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With fifteen hearts next to your name,
my phone reminded me a month ago.
then two weeks ago,
...a week ago
and finally today.
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I don't blame my phone,
how would it know ?
Maybe it could have noticed that we didn't talk
And assumed that I didn't need to be reminded.
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Nevertheless,
I still celebrated you.
I sat by my side,
Thought of all the things I've been planning to do
On your birthday.
And did them.
Silently.
Beautifully.
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