haikyuu!! x reader

akaashi x reader : pavement

"'Cause now that they're gone, all I hear are the words that I needed to say"
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She has always been my day 1, staying by my side throughout my entire 17 years of existence. She always knew me as if I’m just the back of her hand, easily reading my movements and emotion; and for that specific reason, I have mastered the art of hiding my true feelings to her. She always told me she wanted to be a psychologist because the way we think fascinates her, even adding a creepy “humans are interesting creatures” every time she would say that. Being that I grew up with this girl, I have also memorized her every moment as she did to me, I could immediately see thru her and her petty lies.

“Oh, they’re just cat scratches.”

“I want to be left alone for now.”

“I’m fine.”

Were you really fine? Did you really want to be left alone? Are they really just cat scratches, because for all I know you dislike cats.

I perfectly remember that one autumn day, you skipped school because you told me you caught a fever and had to rest. Knowing that you’ve always been honest to me, I believed that, until your brother called me, informing me that you’re in the ICU fighting for your life. Why would you lie about that?

I didn’t want to believe it at first, but when I saw you laying on the hospital bed lifeless, with stiches on both your wrists and an oxygen mask to your face, I grew weak on the knees. My eyes aren’t deceiving me anymore, this is reality, this is our reality. I couldn't bring myself to cry, I had to be strong for the both of us. I begged, I begged for you to fight, as selfish as that sounded. I didn't want to lose you the moment I finally had a grip on my feelings.

Maybe it was out of pity, but I didn't care. What's important is you're here by my side right now, returning the feelings I have mustered up to confess to you the day you woke up. You were crying, we both were; you were scared of dying, but you were tired of this life. Ironic isn't it? I remember that night, the sky was clear and the moon was reflecting on the window of your hospital room; you told me you’d keep fighting for your life if it means I get to stay by your side forever, and you did.

Today’s a Friday, and volleyball practice just ended. You skipped school today because you had an appointment with your therapist, your 130th appointment to be exact; today you were to find out if you’ve finally rid of depression. “Akaashi,” I heard Bokuto call from behind me as I turned around to look at him, concern clearly painted on his face. “How’s she?” He asked as I opened my phone to check if I had any messages from her, and I do.

A smile immediately crept on my face as I read the message you just sent.

From: y/n
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ubject: FINALLY!
JI!!! I’m finally depression free!!! The doctors did 3 diagnoses earlier and finally confirmed that I’m depression free :)  but I still need to take supplementary medicine :(

She’s finally depression free! God only knows how happy I am to hear that from her; after battling it for 2 years she’s finally free from it. I felt tears prickling my eyes as Bokuto looked at me weirdly before giving me a hug. We both started walking back to the changing rooms, me telling him that y/n is finally depression free and him having the biggest smile on his face. “That’s great!” He exclaimed as we both entered the room, immediately changing my clothes and texting her a reply.