Do you ever feel like your drowning?
Cutting?
Pinching your self until you bleed?
Or burning your own skin?
Self-harming......
That's what people say its called
I call it peace and quiet
It my time to cut and think of everything I've done wrong In my life
To think of all the thing which will kill me in the end
When I was a younger kid I said to every one "Cutting is stupid, the cutters are stupid"
Now,.......it's me the one cutting
I'm the cutter now
I have 42 cuts on my upper Arm
10, on my legs
6, on my thighs
And 5, on my wrist
It all adds up to 63 cuts in total
All over my body
Yes I am ashamed
Yes I feel tattooed
But it's something I like
Something I like to see dripping out of my body
I'm sick
I know
I can fake thing pretty good
My own therapist says im "Fine"
I hate that word
"Fine"
Because I'm not fine
I'm ripped apart,in tears, heartbroken, scared,
Everything
I'm scared, scared of the ugly MONSTER I see in the mirror standing before me
I have no way in nor out of my own self-harming psycho ways.....
They say girls are the only ones to self harm
Look at me I'm no Girl
I'm ME...
