drag you down: lourrie[eng]

drag me down

I was standing in the bathroom 30 minutes already. 1800 seconds. It's easy to calculate. Easy. Easier than my life. Much more. Bathrobe began rubbing my skin, especially from cuffs. Eeverything seems superfluous now. I untie the white fleecy belt, he falls to the floor lying like a snake, waiting for hours to attack with a deadly bite. It wouldn't help me, even if poisonous snake would be on the floor. Bathrobe slowly drifted away from my body, baring sharp shoulders first, then chest, livid elbows, very flat stomach...

Lay my head, under the water 

Lay my head, under the sea 

Excuse me sir, am I your daughter? 

Won't you take me back, take me back and see? 

The bath filled to the edges in front of me. When I was drawing water, it was hot. Has it cooled down now? I take a step forward, lifted my leg and step to the tub. Feels still hot, but for me it's cold. I stand in the water with both feet and slowly sit down with eyes shut. It seems that my thoughts are pure like I am, that all is awesome in the moment. The piercing on my neck touching the cold ceramic coating, while frost runs over my skin. I flinch and come back to reality. My "crystal blue eyes" emptied and turned gray. As well as my life.

There's not a time, for being younger 

And all my friends, are enemies 

And if I cried unto my mother 

No she wasn't there, she wasn't there for me 

Don't let the water drag you down 

(Don't let the water drag you down) 

Don't let the water drag you down 

Time inevitably carried forward. I'm also lying in the bath, looking in front of me, legs bent at the knees, hands on my stomach, passed an hour or so though. There is only one thought, "Well, who needs you now Perrie?". My ex-boyfriend don't needs me. Neither father. Neither brother. Neither mother. Beloved mother that I almost idolized. I ... I loved her more than anyone ever. I did everything that she wanted, what she hinted or think about. I knew her, knew from cover to cover. According to one of her wrinkles on the forehead, I would know how she feels or what she wants to say. And now is nothing there.

Broken lines, across my mirror 

Show my face, all red and bruised 

And though I screamed and 

I screamed, well no one came running 

No I wasn't saved, I wasn't safe from you 

Water becomes colder only that made me squeeze exhausted smile out from myself. What else could I do? My body refused to move, hands trembling, I didn't feel my feet. This is what I wanted. That's what I deserve. Or maybe not deserve, but I'm not going live a day longer. This is not what all would like. It will be easier...without me. My skin is pale, bruises began to appear stronger. It seemed that the whole body covered covered and bruises, it doesn't have any normal side. Surely I can't talk, I was numb. And I lost my voice over and over again when I was there, where were they all. My loved ones. Which I have no longer in my life.

Don't let the water drag you down 

(Don't let the water drag you down)