Longing for you

chapter 1

    Am finally done with my final year exams. What a relief,now i can celebrate to my hearts content and especially with my love. I miss him already.

    My name is alexis,first born child. I have two siblings and well ,they are monsters. Wouldn't trade them for anything in the world though. Am an olive skinned girl and i must say, i am attractive. 

    Just kidding. Am gorgeous, a head turner literally. Am proud i got my mama's genes. Describing myself i would say am a plain jane, intelligent,ambivert,tomboyish. Though my tomboyish genes are toned down it still shows a bit and am a cutie even with the frown i carry on most times.

    I just got a message from my friend,He's male. Almost all my friends are male ,well admirers turned friends if i may add. It says he's going to introduce me to a guy he knew through pubg mobile.

    Cool. I typed in my reply and headed to my boyfriends house. It took  an hour to arrive there. Another notification popped up on my phone before i could knock on the gates.

    Awww,my girlfriend Mia just sent me a message. I click the message to view it but what i saw shook my world.

    "Your boyfriend is cheating was boldly written. I pinched myself just to make sure i ain't seeing things. Confusion sets in my mind as i try to decide if to believe my friend was joking or not. She likes pranks a lot ,i wont be shocked if she's joking.

    I didn't bother to knock the gates again. In my current state i don't think i can smile. I hope its one of Mia's silly jokes. I quickly haul a cab and go back home. Am met with mia,who sat on my couch looking disappointed and disgusted ,her eyes glued to her phone.

    I inched closer to her who didn't seem to notice me. My breath gets caught in my throat as i watch the video , i pretend to be impossible and even emotionless. Its a video of marcus,my boyfriend kissing and unknown girl. I watched as they kissed passionately  before suddenly becoming a crying mess.

    I hold my hand to my chest as my knees go weak but moan holds me up and hugs me . she doesn't say a word. i wiped my tears and get release myself from miss embrace . I walked towards my room and she took it as her cue to leave.

    Slamming the door off my room,i screamed in my pillow ,my tears cascading down my face. I felt weak and drained. Marcus,y? I asked him in my mind repeatedly. Did i even mean anything to him? Was i just a tool for his entertainment? My feelings,love,heart all in one played.

    No more tears,no more pain,gone in an instant. I ve sworn to never make a mistake like this again. I regret knowing him,but its all a lesson for me too. I smile through my stained cheeks and pulled myself together.

    Time to end everything,i said to myself.i was mentally ready to throw him away,i forgave him numerous times already.

    I took out my phone from my pocket and sent him a mesg. Three words to be precise. "We are done".

Wat do you mean by this? Was the immediate reply I received. Marcus hasn't replied me this quick for four months now. I smile wickedly to myself.

Why are you breaking up with me?, if I did anything wrong pls forgive me. I feel the pain am trying to hold back resurfacing but I typed back.

How's ava ?I ask. She's good.he replies after a few minutes. Cool,I said. Uhm so I heard you had something with ava ,I type with a blank look on my face.

For a good five minutes I didn't receive any reply. My mind was a mess as I stared at my blank phone until I suddenly got a received a mesg. Yes,its Marcus. I view the mesg and its content left me in anger. "I ve done that ,and worse".

What else did you do? I asked right back with anger blazing in my eyes as I stared at the phone screen. My mesg was left  unreplied as he asked what about Loretta. Oooh the guts!

I saw a video of you kissing ava. Where? Send me the video  was his immediate reply.

No need. Just forget it. Like I said ,we are done.