What if?

Chapter 2

                  

The beginning of the day was a blur.

"Math test= cake. Speaking of cake, I wonder what's for lunch." I told Vicky as we walked down the halls towards our lockers.

"Taco Salad or a cheeseburger. Who are you planning to sit with today?" She asked. I wasn't sure who I was going to sit with. I rarely sat with Sam because of Morgan. I don't know who to sit with today because I kind of wanted to see how the Ryan drama would play out, and maybe he would notice me.

"I am thinking I am going to sit with Sam today 'cause there is some serious drama and I need to see how it is going to end up. And it has to do with, you know who" I told Vicky. All my friends knew about my serious crush on Ryan, well actually just the girls. I am pretty sure Ernie has had a small crush on me for a really long time. If I were to tell him- I can't he is one of my best friends and I don't want to ruin that.

"Alright I get ya, keep me posted though." She responded as we split up as she kept walking towards her locker and I stopped in front of mine. I heard my name and spun around.

"Liz, I need you to sit with me today." Sam approached me

"Yeah sure I was already planning it" I knew she would ask me because whenever there was some major guy drama she asked me this. I opened her locker for her (it was unlocked) and listened.

"You are the best love ya I will save you a seat next to me don't worry." Sam said as she strutted down the hallway towards the heaven and hell of the cafeteria. I turned back to close my locker when I heard a guy's voice behind me.

"Hey Liz, um I don't know the right way to phrase this." Ryan started OMG Ryan is talking to me, ok play cool think like Sam. Maybe he is going to ask me out! "Okay so I'm sure you know that I asked your sister out again last night..." here it comes, I hope, he withdrew a long unsteady breath." I have had a crush on your sister" No-no-no-no-no this is not happening to me right now. He looked at me awkwardly. "Well since first grade, but I never knew why. I have asked her out three times but she won't say yes... Do you think you could persuade her or do anything to help me?" He finished looking extremely embarrassed and flustered. I looked at him I was so pissed at him using me to help him get a date. Ugh pathetic, yet how sweet cause he was so desperate to go out with Sam he would do anything. But I am sure after I help him he will toss me to the side and ignore me. And why does he look so embarrassed as if he can't be seen with me? I am not like the kid who would sit behind someone and flick boogers at people, I mean I have a life and I am actually pretty well liked. While my brain said no my heart decided it was in charge and I guess I said yes because he was suddenly smiling at me and said he was going to text me.

                                                         
Well at least he would text me...

I walked down the hallway trying to find some sort of comfort and answers because of course he just threw me into the front lines of middle school drama but I don't know what army I am fighting for. I don't know if I can tell Sam and if I do should I tell her everything should I start at the begging? Should I tell her that I am jealous of her confidence and the act that everyone wants to be her or be with her and nobody knows who I am and we are practically the same? Should I keep quiet? Should I tell her that I have a crush on Ryan and I think he is using me to get her and I don't want to help but I don't want him to hate me? What should I do?

In the cafeteria I grabbed taco salad and apple juice. The lunch ladies aren't supposed to give out the apple juice but they always give me one anyways, just a perk of being friendly I guess. I walked over to Sam's table which wasn't weird because I usually sat with them like once a week. I noticed that the seat Sam saved me next to her was between her and Ryan. Oh Crap, does she know something? I brushed it off not to look suspicious and desperate and greeted everyone with my best I totally don't think you guys are completely annoying smile and sat. They started talking about the beach bash on Friday and I listened in to find out what the plans were and who would be there because I didn't want to show up like a total freak.